dhirah

2011-05-05T17:59:00.000-07:00

In school now ,
Im super early today ..class start at 9.15am and i reached at 8.45 am *clap2..
Anyways , new semester , new classmates ..classmates were orayte ..found some that can 'click' wit and close to ..but i jux hate 2nd year ..
i miss 1st year where everyone have tha same tyme and i can meet boyf every single day , and my dad get to send me and i hate that i havent get an A ..and i have to do my project somemore i cant wait to graduate ..pasir ris to woodlands everyday ..tiringgg ..
anddd today i wake up im not in tha mood , cant meet boyf tha whole dayy :(
ahhhh ..F everything ..today module , microbiology ..ahhh ..i hate everything ..howw ?
anyways , muhd firdaus , happy 9 mnths baby ..(:

2011-04-15T03:44:00.001-07:00

Heyyyaa ! :) next mon school start ..new class , new classmates , new modules .. will be starting my class at 9.15 am which means im going to end school at around 4 plus ..omgg .. i have classes fer full 5 days ..booo-ring .. some of tha days boyf start class at different tyme from mine ..alaaahhh nak samer2 ..hes my bestfriend and my boyfriend ..heheh ..and he get to go school fer only 4 hours fer some days ..omggg ..i want that ..and i dont know if my break tyme going to be tha same as as him ..omggg ..tk bestt uhh gini ..and omgg i need to make new frens ..malass nyee nak kene add in msn , in fb lagi but nehmind i can get to know more people ..and guess whatt my i have different class venue from mon-fri so i have to keep shifting around ..omgggg ..howw patheticc ..=.= what if i got blurred and 4get and get into tha wrong claz on diff day ..omgggg ..and before i even start school i yak yak yak alrdy ...hahahha and theres another nadhirah in my class after i check tha class rooster ..hahahha .. anyways , sundayyy todayyy ..not going out spend my day today EATING ..went to tha kitchen and bibik cook special fer tha family lontong with rendang , with sotong sambal with everything ..complete ..feeling hari raya ..heheh .. dear boyf , im so sorry if i have been succha a pain in tha ass fer tha past few days when i keep getting angry wit u ..keeping getting upset over everything .. im so sorry ..this month i dont know why it hasnt been good fer us ..but u prove to me how strong your love more than just saying 'i love you' ..u never give up on me , u were very patience ..u give in all tha tyme ..im so thankful to have u as my boyf ..i dont want to lose u cause i can never find anyone lyke u ..trust me .. andd fareeha , omggg ..thank youu so muchh fer being there fer me ..ure a greatt friend anyone can have ..when in tha midnight , i ring you up and you picked up , hear my cry and lending me your ears ..thanks so muchh ..sometimes i jux dont understand myself ..and u being a girl u understand what im going through ..thanks babe *huggggg

2011-03-26T21:21:00.001-07:00

This week i haven been going out that much ..except on tha 22nd March , went out wit boyf to celebrate his burdae ..i planned a surprise fer him but then most of my frens cant make it ..so i planned to do a small surprise fer him and then ..hahahhaa ..i thought of surprisingly appear under his void deck wit his present and then when i jux stepped my leg out of tha bus and jux a few more steps to his block and he called and say he saw me ..hahahahahha ..omg omg ..accompanied him to buy his stuff fer awhile and then went up to his house to meet my mummy-in-law while he get ready ..burdae boy mahh so have to fetch him from his place ..hehehehehhehe :) His momma has been very nycee , if only my momma can do tha same and say "ok" to my relationship ..bt i know insya allah in 2 years tyme aft im done wit my diploma everything will be fynee ..insya allah .. then had lunch at tamp s11 ..accompanied him to lavender he has something on ..got to make fren wit his fren girlfren ..hahaha ..we can 'click' pretty well .. then dating lahhh apr lagi ..hahahha .. went to marina sqaure to catch a movie ..watch big momma ..i've been wanting to watch that ... I thought tha movie is VERY HILARIOUS but aft watching its jux simply HILARIOUS without veryy ..hahaha ...omgg im crapping .. but i enjoy watching tha movie because i watched wit ma dearest ..hehehe *wink and another thing , i heard that tha toilet in marina square is haunted and guess wadd i really feel lyke pee-ing so i went all tha way to tha esplanade toilet ..hahhahaa ..i knoww2 ..penakot ..when come to ghost and everything im very sensitive , allergic ..hahahha .. then walked around marina gave boyf his present ..hehehhe ..wuahh dahh 18 ..suke uhh tuhh ..he can take his basic theory alrdy ..i have to wait till july ..but i feel very lucky since my dad has prepared money fer my license ..fully sponsored ..hehehe .. thenn had dinner at kembangan to have steakk ..but i find tha steak to hard to chew ..hahhaha .. friday , fifa and fareeha came to my house and watched some VCD in 3D ..then watched damping malam and then played monopoly deal ..ohhmyy i so love girls tymee ..especially when we gossiped and laughed ..and tha best thing we lie down together , talk , laugh talk laugh ..then we even took video of us singing crapping ..bestt girls i ever had ..hahahah ..and i asked them one random question " kalo nnti aku nikah , krg nanges tk " ..hahahahhaahha .. Finally , i feel so relief that i passed my exams fer semester 2 ..woohhooo ..alhamdulilah ..year 1 - cleared ..2 more years baby ! ..hahahah i thought im going to repeat some of my modules especially bio and chem ..chem exam tha other day was a disaster i had a bad gastric very very bad and that was tha last day of exam ..people enjoy but me went home straighttttttt okaaayy ..omgg ..i thought im going to flung my chem cause i do tha whole exam anyhow jux by luck especially filling tha blank i was lyke "ya allah tlg aku mudah-mudahan apr yang tangan aku type nie jawapan btol" .. i checked my grade and i passed ..miracle ..alhamdulilahh but sadly im still an average student ..my GPA wasnt that excellent ..i hope i can buck upp cause if can i wanna have a taste of a degreee ..pleaasee2 ya allahh ..hhehee i hope this wed everyone can make it fer sentosa ..dah lamer tk kluaa samer2 .. assalamuaikum take care ! have a greatt dayy and dont forget to smile ..

2011-03-15T02:33:00.000-07:00

Heys babies ..
hhahahah ..
whole day at home todayy ..thought of going jogging wit my cousin but suddenly i feel lyke sleeping ..whyy uhh ? ..heheheh ..
now im enjoying tha choc boyf bought fer me yesterdae ..hehehe ..
went to accompany him to RP yesterdae to get his laptop fix and then IT helpdesk was closed ..so we jux spend tyme together and had dinner at pizza hut ..always had a great tyme when im out wit him ..7 months still in honeymoon period ..whyy eyhh ? ..hahaha ..cause during my previous relationship wasnt as this good , wasnt as this smooth ..hehheee ..mayb this relationship is jux way way too special fer me ..

going to accompany my momma to hospital 2mrw ..my momma is pregnant ! ...
not ..hahahhaah ..kiddinggg ..nak mampos ..hehehhe
Hope everything go well 2mrw ..i pray fer u momma*hug tight ..(:
and 2mrw is my daddy 49th burdae ..heheh ..ayah dah tua =p
in a few more years hes going to get son-in-law ..hhahahhaahhaha ..omg mentel ..
dad getting older and im also getting older ..
'Dad , can i have a boyf now?'
anddd if onlyy he read my blog ..cause i dont dare to ask him this right infront of his face ..
he has been disagreeing wit my previous relationship and always finding my ex-boyf weaknesses ..im so scared if he still disagree wit my relationship now ..
I have been very close wit him since young , since i was still a baby ..i spend more time wit my dad ..sometimes hes lyke my mum and a dad ..can u imagine a dad accompanying his daughter to buy undergarments ..he pampered me so much ..he get me almost everything i want ..but my only wish now is that he can accept my boyf ..i have been sharing wit him about my friends , problems everything but one thing , i nvr share wit him about my love lyfee ..cause he never understand that ..
imma big girl now but i'll still be your fav baby daughter , eventhough i have a boyf now ..my dad is always my hero ..if i hasnt get a dad lyke him , mayb i am not what i am now especially i get easily influenced ..but its jux so difficult to tell him that i am in a relationship now ..
omg omg ..
but wadever it is , i love u dad ! ..

baby brother going fer camp again 2mrw ..yeay ..i'll be tha only child ..heheheheh

2011-03-09T23:47:00.000-08:00

The day you came into my life will be cherished always.
An angel sent from heaven above for my lonely heart to hold.
My heart is no longer lonely, but instead
filled with the wonder of a love like I’ve never known.

He send me this through MSN ..when ? ..i cant rmbr but i save this in my laptop ..heheheh ..adorable (:

2011-03-09T21:58:00.001-08:00

Heyy !
Ferstly , i dont know why my facebook account became activated when i deactivated it alrdy ..
Secondly , hahahhaha ..i went through my facebook account before deactivated it again and i check my friend request , NPCC junior add me and when i look through her pics , i suddenly miss my NPCC mates , in my head i was lyke 'omg , few years back , im lyke her , taking pictures during NPCC events or random shots during training' ..i miss my mates aloot .. i miss tha trainings , tha laughters , tha camp ..so many sweet bitter memories ..i learnt alot from NPCC , i learnt not to be too pampered , more independent and lastly most importantly not to choose certain people to be friends with but friends with everyone BUT THE THING IS , I MISS LOYANG SEC BELIEVE IT OR NOT ..I MISS THA FOOD ..LAST TYME ONCE THE BELL RING FER RECCESS , MY CLASSMATE AND I WILL RUN DOWN TO THE WESTERN STALL TO GET OUR CHICKEN CUTLET(ALL TYME FAV FOOD) IF NOT THA QUEUE WILL BE VERYY LONGG ..AWWW I MISS THOSE TIMES , SERIOUSLLYYY ...hahaha talking about food , i gained weight ..but who cares ? enjoy lyfee to tha fullest ..i dont care anymore about my look ..everytyme when people asked me to slim down , i'll jux " tk perr uhh , dah adr matae" ..hehehehe.. andd i kept smiling at tha old photos of boyf and i when people kept commenting , 'disturbing' ..hahahhaha ..omg omg ..shy2 ..honeymoon period , now also still honeymoon period eventhough i got prangai with him ..but tha love nvr change ..(:

I walk a thousand miles
But nothing's what I found
Until you came around
Cause you're the greatest

Search high and low for love, just
To find out, that it was here all along, and
I know it, but I wanted it
I should've been chasing you

i know boyf read my blog , so if u're reading ..rmbr this song ? ..terimbas kembali tak ? ..lagu menjadi saksi ..hehhehehehe ..
i finally found some one to settle down with ..best i ever had (:

now im missing boyf , he asked me to accompany him to IT show but im lazy to go out since its raining .. hehheee ..i want to video call with him but hes happily taking his shower ..

miss my baby brother ..no one to disturb ..no one to watch TV with and no one to download fer me songs ..when he come back home i want to huggg himm ..rinduuu

grandmummy shifting house soon ..and im sleeping over ..maybe ..

assalamuaikum
have a great day ahead !

2011-03-06T21:55:00.000-08:00

No matter what happens in lyfe , be good to people
Being good to people is a wonderful legacy to leave behind - Taylor Swift

2011-03-05T17:49:00.000-08:00

Went to meet up wit fareeha and hafifah lyke at lasst last thurday..miss themm ..
initial plan was to go fer picnic but tha weather dont lyke us so we went to clarke quay ..why clarke quay ? because we dont know where else to go ..we even look at the mrt board to see from east to west where we can go ..kental eyhh ..hehehhe... then went fer karaoke at grandlink ..i miss singing , dancing , being crazy wit my all time fav girls ....sing , laugh , sing , laugh ..pnat gitu jerr aku ..hehehe .. and i was dancing one of tha techno song wit semangat and then my head get hit by tha microphone ..hahahha ! kecohhh ..terus ngantokk ..
Aft that tha girls went back and i meet boyf to have dinner date at arnold ..heheheh ..
anways , happy 7 month baby !
theres no guy that trust me lyke u do and theres no guy that has patience lyke you do ..(:
i rmbr how tha ferst tyme u hold my hand when u send me home from school when im sickk , at that point of tyme my heart has nvr beat that fast ...tha ferst tyme when u ask me out fer movie date and tha ferst tyme when asked me to sleep on yr shoulder in tha bus ...hehehehe ..makes me smile when im typing this ..(:

2011-02-10T23:51:00.000-08:00

School :
Last day of school , end of year one ..woohoo..Ut3 next week , i'm going to start study today , Ut 1 grades were okaay and then it became worst during Ut2 ..in terms of daily grades i have improved in semester 2 than semester 1 ..physics facilitator keep asking me if i have study ..
Anyways , i have a heavy heart leaving this class ..i have made many close friends ..next semester new classmates , need to smile , need to add in msn , fb ..take phone number ..lazyy lahh going through tha same process over and over again ..lazzyy to make new frens....haiyaa ..but looking forward to meet hot guys ..hahahahahah..sengaje nak kasi firdaus baceee ..hahahha ..

Relationship :
Has been half a year , 6 months ..and guess whatt ..my longest relationship :)
boyf bring me to singapore flyer yesterdae then singapore museum and we walk around , spent tyme together ..tireddd but boyf always made my day ..dear boyf , i love you so muchh and im so sorry if at times i mrajok2 wit u ..i cant hide my ego ..but u know that i cant stand mad at you fer so long ..im afraid to lose u ..and this is the ferst tyme ever that a guy bring me to meet tha whole family ..omggg ..hehehehhe.. ohh and hes sweet ya knoww surprise me by buying me sticky sweet with the "i love you" on it ..anddd one more thing my boyf love doraemon ..he collect doraemon books ..asl u cute sgtttt uhhhh *ketok yr headdd ..hahahahah

holidays coming cant wait to go out with girlfriends ..Grandmummy at my hse , best2 ..going fer my cousin engagement 2mrw ..
ohhh and i jux created tumblr , i'll be more active there as its new ..muahahaha ...fallingstars-joy.tumblr.com
andddd now i am not only taking a diploma in biotechnology but also taking diploma in pengajian islam ..heheheh..after this ....kahwinnn ..ahahhah...

I jux realised something after years learning from mistakes to respect people more , to be nycee and kind , people jux take it fer granted and take advantage of you ..i even dont like to call people "bodoh" even though to some people that word is nothing .."slengerr" , "kental" will be a nicer word saying it rightt ..

2011-01-01T18:02:00.001-08:00

good morning to a lovely 2011 ..
2010 started abit sour then it ends veryy well and i hope this will continue in 2011
beginning of 2010 i still rmrbr how i hate to be in RP , not that i hate tha poly but i hate how people words that bring me down ..not only that i go through alot of shits ..i met wit tha wrong guys ..who is much older than me and think that they are more matured and whatever they do is correct ..comee onnn ..omggg ..i feel lyke posting their names since they inspired me to type this ..1 year i have been single cause i want to be wit someone i love whole heartedly and i want to be serious in relationship and have a long lasting one lyke those couple out there ..and im so lucky that allah give me tha most meaningful gift , md firdaus (: after being patience and going through all tha shitzzzz ALONE ..
i reliased that there is blessing in disguise if not because of me getting posted to RP , i wont be meeting and be close to firdaus ..only from RP we get to be know each other closely and better eventhough we were secondary school mates and from there we became couple ..hehehhe and allah give me tha wrong guys so that when i got the right one i will appreciate it ..

hehehe .. new year eve went out wit my dad and lil bro ..my momma couldnt join us ..
went to watch movie ..

2mrw i'll start school , yeay ..i miss boyf alrdy , its been 1 week i didnt meet him ..
5 more weeks to school and im done wit my 1st year ..hehhe ..confident jerr eyhh ..
huhu and this year july i'll turn 18 ..can take car license ..yeay ..daddy sponsor ..hahahha ..

random postt ...hahahha ..take care ..

2010-12-29T23:59:00.001-08:00

Years of friendship ..seee we grew up alrdy ..hahhahaa ..love all them (:

Had a great girls tyme wit them last monday ..
kak wani came over to my house , had lunch and then proceed to bugis .and i get to pass by at mun's work place ..heeheh ..long tyme nvr see her alrdy ..then accompany kak wani shopped ..around 6 pm then maisyarah and dewi reached bugis then went to pasta mania to have our dinner ..after dinner had our chewy doughnut fer dessert , i was craving fer it ..after wards went to city hall to find a nycee place to sit , eat doughnut and chit-chat ..hehehee ..bestt ..

snapped2 pictures and off home
miss themm aloot ..had a good catch-up , good laughter , we even show our boyf pictures to each other ..hahahahha ..meet again soon orayte babies :)

and in one more day hello 2011 ..hheehe ..everytyme when new year is drawing near i will always want to forget the previous year and start a fresh , start brand new chapter but this year is different , i lovee 2010 aloot , sweet unforgettable memories

if only this lyfee can remain stagnant lyke now whereby i am always smiling and laughing ..hmmmmm ..

anyways i was going through , my laptop and i saw this ..

TO MY ADORABLE SWEETHEART :
*You’re my comfort when I’m lonely
You’re my peace when I need rest
Of all the women I’ve known
I must rate you the best.

You’re the orchard in the jungle,
you’re the better half of me
You’re all of this and so much more,
you mean the world to me

this was when my boyf leave me an offline msg in msn and tha next mrning when i sign in msn i was delighted to see this ..hhhehehee ..(:
you're tha best guy everr , realllyyyy ..each day u make me feel so lucky to have youu dearr (;

2010-12-23T02:48:00.001-08:00

I think my blog is totally dead ..hahahha ..i dont know who is still readingg ..
i feel like blogging today since im bored..
my family left me and bibik at home because i was having my afternoon nap and they dont want to disturb ..hrrr ..called them and they're at city plaza ..bestt nyee ..arnolddd ..hahhaah ..
anyways , finally tha 2 weeks holidays ..but somehow i miss school because i can meet my boyf ..hahah ..

fareeha came over to my crib jux now ..she talk alottt about her lyfee noww ..her new classmates and everything ...lyke always when im wit her laugh not stop especially when we gossip over people pictures in facebook ..hhhhahaha ..*wink
i miss my girlfriends laah ..korang jgn busy2 lahh , rindduuu ..hahha ..weekdays =busy wit school and boyf , weekends=busy wit family ..so i have not meet my girlfriends fer i dont know how longg ..i hope next week girlfirends are free abit and can go otu wit them ..
uhmm what elsee to update ..ohhh i think its not to late to mention this , my lil bro has made my family proud by getting into express stream , he did way better than me fer PSLE ..hehhe..all tha best lil bro in your secondary school lyfee..i cant wait fer him to come to me and say this"kak , i got girlfriend knoww"..heheehhe

2mrw gg cycling wit boyf ..cant waitt ..i miss himmm ..i miss seeing him sleeping in tha bus wit his head keep 'rock N roll' , i miss seing his smile that make me melt silently ..heheh ..i miss him feeding me during lunch , i miss him holding my hand ..i miss his warm/tight hug ..i miss him pinching/stroking my cheek ..i miss him smelling my hair ..hehehhe ..i miss everything..i love tha way he pamper me ..
and alhmadulilah we have reach a smooth 4 months ..celebrate our monthsary at sentosa ..had fun wit him ..hehehe *wide smile
i jux realised that when i am in this relationship , giving tha fullest commitment is not that diffcult , i haven been texting or even msn-ing wit other guys except bestie ..
he has been a very understanding boyf who trust me ..who sees perfection behind all my flaws..
who will called me beautiful when my hair is messy when i dont wear make-up , who will tell me that i am a good girlfriend eventhough i think i have my flaws..Hes jux almost close to perfect ..(:
i see my future wit him ..hope we can graduate with a diploma in another 2 years
and insya allah , bring our relationship to tha next level..i dont want anyone elsee , i hope allah will answer my prayer..

for the rest of my lyfee , i'll be wit u
i'll stay by yr side honest and true
till the end of my tyme i'll be loving you , loving you

2010-11-17T21:04:00.000-08:00

Our first lab session ..hahahah ..the nerds (:

I dont whyy i have been neglecting my blog ..been busy schooling ..hahhaha..
even now im in school ..just finished my powerpoint , so i can relaxed abit ..today boringg , cant lunch wit boyf , since he has some study trip to go ..no one to feed me ..hahhaa ..
Anyways , i ahven been updating about my lyfee rightt ..
love lyfee been good ...very very good ..i am happy wit boyf ..i just love the way he pamper me and the sincerity he show me ..hes everthing that other guys are not ..my one in a million ..
hope we could last forever , insya allah ..i want my future wit him ..

School ; second semester ..new class , new classmates ..can go well wit them and i happen to be in tha same class wit my orientation mate , fayy ..hahaha ..time flies , soon it will be the end of the year ..hmmmm

yesterdae hari raya haji was tiring ..grandmummy at my hse so the aunties and uncles actually cam eto my hse ..but had funn wit them , the cousins ..ate alot ..i gain alot of kg(s) ..im a happy person now whuatt ..hahhhaa !

kaay dahh byee , presentation starting soon ..hoho ..

2010-10-10T20:18:00.000-07:00

woke up at 7 am today ..early uhhh ..whyy ? ..due to some reasons ..hrrr ..
bathe , ate breakfast ..sleep back ..jux 1 hour of sleep then my younger brother came back ..haiyaa ..
Now im waiting fer kak wani to get green light from her supervisor to take half day , and we're gg karaoke ..yeayy ..its been a long tyme since tha last tyme i went fer karaoke ..heheh ..
me : eyh lets go fer lunch
kak wani : then we go beachh , i want to relax
me : go karaoke uhh ..
kak wani : omg nadhirah , yes yes i want to go ..asshole u ..now i dont feel lyke working ..
hhahahha ! ..bad influence eyhh ..
kak wani passed her basic theory test alrdy and i cant wait fer her to get her car license ..bring me around singapore ..hahaha ..
starting school 2mrw ..haiyyaaa ..lazyy lazzybumm
but nehmind i can see my boyf everyday ..hahaha ...
one good thing about having a boyf in tha same school makes you feel motivated to go to school ..hahaha ..
anyways , im missing boyf alrdy ..miss you firdaus ..

2010-10-07T20:00:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 2 MONTHSARY DEARR ! (: Had a great date wit you ..hehhe *wink

Anyways , i did passed my poly exams ..hhahah ...alhamdulilahh ..i thought im gonna repeat or something because i knew i screwed up abit and i didnt study till tha last min , did study wit boyf ..and boyf passed too ..yeay ..hahah ..GPA was not that fantastic ..average ..but its okaay better than i expected since i didnt put alot of effort ..check leo , i knew my class fer next semester ..and i knew my modules also ..ohhh myyy ..physics , chemistry , cell biology and theres mathematics 2 , i dont know if its gonna be a-maths ..ohh myyy godd ..i got a bad feelingg ..sheeshh ..hahah..

staying at home today ..i dont know whatt to do ...hmmm ..

take care ! (:

2010-10-04T00:27:00.000-07:00

In response to that person blog ..
I have read and on behalf of my girls , its our turn now to have our say .. we have been keeping this low profile ..
So firstly , hmmm ..the four of us do not know tha reason RIGHT FROM THA START ..
we feel that u are avoiding us ..but we seriously do not know what we have done to make you act that way ..
u want reason but not apology ?..
let me tell you something sweetheart , not everyone can put their ego and pride aside jux to apologise ..we treasure tha friendship ..we want to save tha friendship ..

and when we want to end all this we apologise SINCERELY , and may i know why when fareeha call you and asked you nicely if there is anything you want to say ..u didnt say anything and now u say in yr blog after reading yr post feel free to ring you up ..from tha bottom of our heart , we try to amend this ..but unfortunately its wrong in your eyes , and ure not even sastified ..frankly speaking , i do not know what is wrong wit u ..
and i was shocked after years of friendship u said you jux want to regard us as schoolmates ..wow ..we do not have any value in your eyes already izzit ? if yes , then its okaay ..we can accept .. but actually if you dont know what is wrong then why u want to end this friendship ..i dont understand ..do u have an answer to that ?
and yaaa we're 17 already not small kids anymore ..and u also think that this fight is a waste ..oh god ..alhamdulilah ya allah u realised that ..then ? why are u still acting that way ? ..we also dont want to fight till grave ..tell me who want it anyways ..kte pon tak nak sampai tua dah ader rambut putih pon , we still tak bertegur sapa ..

i think i have my say .. actually , i do not want to rant everything out here but i think its fair enough ..zaman biler nak pour out our unhappiness in blog but what to do ..if we want to meet to talk things out ..i dont think you want ..muke kte pon kau dah tk nak tgk lagi perr ..am i right ? correct me if im wrong ..jangan mentang2 kte senyap we are fyne with everything and as if in people eyes ONLY us are in tha wrong ..

to add to this ..im thankul that i have true girlfrens that i can stick with during my ups and downs ..frens forever girls (: we are already happy tha way we are now ..girls , tha four of us dah enough kann ..do we still need extra people ? i dont think so ..(:

2010-09-30T20:17:00.000-07:00

Fareeha like to do this ..hahhahaha

hands0me nye matae aku ..hahhaha ..

@ fir house ..hahha ..his parents gave us tha green light alrdy ..hahhah ..(:

kite kahwin next year ..hahhaha

hairul with tha bimla pose ..hahahhaha

@ Naz's house , ferst house ..

This curl using straightener is so-tk-menjadi ..

under my umbrella ella eh eh eh ..sweeet eyhh ..hahahhaa

Biar cinta kita tumbuh harum mewangi

dan DUNIA menjadi saksinya *wink

First lady pose ..hahaha ..

Lastly @ my house ..last house ..muke seme dah pnat ..hahah

hairul and i are always tha last to put on our shoes ..

Hari raya 2010 ! ..(:

i'll upload tha one with 4e1 as well ..

ohh anyways , i've deactivate my facebook , if you people are wondering ..

im sharing account with boyf ..(:

2010-09-21T04:39:00.000-07:00

kak wani ! (:

2010-09-21T04:26:00.000-07:00

fifa : nad , jump ..
me:okaay ..eyh wait2 ..
see , fifa dah semangat jump ..hahhahh ! tgk si mentel nie ..hhehehe

muke dah pnatt ..

our jump shot in front of helix bridge ..hhehe ..

tha rest of tha pictures in facebook ..

2010-09-20T20:51:00.000-07:00

Since i have free tyme now , letme update abit ..
Kak wani currently at my place now ..i was sleeping and she called me ..
i dont want to wake up then when she buy me breakfast then i wake up ..hahhaa ..sleeppyyy ..woke up at 8 am ya knoww ..
then she came complain2 to me about this someone ..pityy herr ..
stay strong sis ..most importantly , must have patience ..insya allah , u both can last long ..and kak wani pleasee eyhh , jgn uat prangai lagi ..hahahhahaa ..
then we got tired and slept till 2pm then had our lunchh ..hahah ..mcm adik-beradik ..
after hearing to her probs im so thankful to have a boyf who understand me well ..and everything lahh ..close to perfectt already ..thankk godd fer giving me tha chance to be with fir ..since day one we're together , alhamdulilah we havent gado2 ..still in our honeymoon period ..heheheh ..kalo blh smpai biler2 ..our relationship is still young , long way to go (:

anyways , tha other day went out wit my fav girls ..fareeha and fifa ..bring them to helix bridge since they have not been there before ..snapped 250 over pictures according to fareeha ..and my leg almost came out after NUMEROUS tries on tha jumping shot ..hahaha ..had funn ..had our lucnh together ..and its been a long tyme since tha last tyme we had girls talk ..and i still rmbr tha last tyme when i talked to my girls i was always clueless , confused ..always having problems..but now finally i found someone who can really take good care of me ..and now when im talking to tha girls im always sharing tha happy2 moments spent wit fir ..heheh ..

Ohh , i also want to update about hari raya ..this year raye i didnt buy any new baju ..cause i was reading this magazine ..and tha fashion designer say rock your last year outfit and plain2 baju kurung is in trend ..so i bought accessories only ..good kann ..savee ..hahah ..i only bought heels and guess handbag ..standard daddy sponsor ..ferst day of raya went back at 3 am ..fuhhh .. ..thought of cooking sambal udang but i cnnt wake up at 4 am to help bibik cook ..hahaha ..tk kuase aku ..hahaha ..eyhh i know how to cook sambal telur , sambal udang , tom yam soup already ..hahaha ..since im having hols now , i go to tha kitchen and helped bibik outt ..hahahah ..nak tell my daddy i can kahwin alrdy .heheheh ..fir tak abis2 asked me to cook fer hym one day ..if i were to cook fer hym , he'll be tha ferst guy i ever cook fer ..honoured tak dearr ? ..heheheh
and my momma asked me to find job ..alerrhh ..she said im too pampered and need to be independent now ..haiyaa ..

whatt else to updatee ..uhhmmm ..raya-ing wit frens this thurs ..cant wait ..whyy ..this yearr special sikit ..i get to raya wit someone special ..heheh ..syawal and ramadan became more meaningful wit fir around ..love youu ..(:

kaayy take caree ! have a nycee day ahead (:

2010-09-13T20:58:00.000-07:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN ..
salah dan silap harap dimaafkan yee ..tk larat nak pikul nnti ..hahahah ..k byee ..(:

2010-09-02T19:53:00.000-07:00

When my world is falling apart

and there is no light to break up the dark

thats when i ..i ..look at you

When i look at you

i see forgiveness

i see the truth

you love me for i am

like the stars hold the moon

right there where they belong

and i know i am not alone

love ya muhd firdaus ,

thanks fer being suchha sweet , loving and understanding boyfriend ..

1 month being wit u so far has been a smooth one and i hope this will continue ..(:

2010-08-24T00:17:00.000-07:00

Hai everyone!

Well apparently I have nth in mind to update about so basically I will just randomly update about few events that happened recently.

first up,

as u can see from my previous posts, there are pictures of me and him.

yeah that is firdaus.

I am glad that I am with him now, it was really unexpected event in my life.

We started off being just classmates in sec schl and we didnt really interact that much.

Then we landed up in the same poly.

He was really a great friend to be with and he really pamper me alot by accompanying me to lunch and the journey to and fro

We just happen to fall in love with each other without reasons as to me, love doesnt need reasoning but it just consist of how we felt for that particular person.

And I thank God for bringing us together till this very day.

Due to his presence, I felt that the the feeling of lonely,agony and sadness fade away.

as he is just like a star in my life which shine and light up this darkness in my life.

Never have I ever feel this way before

I hope and I pray that He would be my last as I could sense the happiness that I have now and it will be carry on till the future..

2010-08-12T22:23:00.000-07:00

My one and only ..

i'll do a proper update soon ..anyways , happy fasting ^^

2010-07-17T03:10:00.001-07:00

Picx not in order ..hahahha ..nehmind laahh ..

2010-07-17T02:06:00.000-07:00

hahahahaah !
hollaa ! ..its beeen a longggg tyme since tha last tyme i update my blog huhh ..lazyy uhh , idk why nowadays im getting lazy to update my blog ..deleting it soon ..see how uhh ..
so there is a lot and alot of update ..many changes in my lyfee..
So ferstly , my previous post i sound sadddd and terrible ..hahahha ..but then now when i read back i feel stoopidd ..no longer with Z , well , we were never together ..jux that i decided to leave hym , no more texting no more late night calls..dont call me a heartbreaker ..i dont want to blame hym either ..butt its good fer me to leave , move on ..better to go on our own way ..thats tha best ..mayb i am jux yr temporary lovee ..
kaaay soo , how to start ..
9 of julyy ! whose burdae uhhh ? ..this pretty lady burdae lahh ..who else ...nadhirahhh =p
it was fikri burdae too ..hahah ..
THANKK YOUU PEOPLE WHO HAVE WISHED ME EITHER THROUGH FACEBOOK/SMS/CALL ..i lovee youuuu alll ..god bless you (:
So im seventeeen at lastt ..hahahah ! still young lahh huhh ..
hahaha ..so i jux had to smile early in tha mrning on my burdae ..
took 969 with firdaus
me : eyh asl tk letak laptop dlm beg
fir : simpan kasut kt dlm
me : ouhh ..
then in tha bus ...he asked me to close my eyes ..
and yeayy , my present ..hahhaa ..he bought me an adidas watch .. and a card , keep smiling when i read it ..hahhaha ..thankk youu so muchh eyh fir ..sweet lahh kauu (:
then reached school , classmates sang burdae song ...then when i came back from lunch yi hui and desmond came in with cake ..thankk youu so muchh dear classmates ..(:
anddd idk whyy sci UT 2 have to be on tha same day on my burdae ..hahhaha
after school , went to pizza hut with fareeha , nazihah , hafifah , fikri , isman , firdaus and hairul ..yeay full strength eyhhh ..tuhh ponn hairul and fareeha pakat together ..fareeha told me that hairul cnnt come ..everyone believe and force hym to come down ..hahaha ..then when i go to tha toilet ..i heard fareeha answering a call saying "eyh aku dah smpai" ..she dont knoww that i went in to tha cubicle beside her ..
me : eyh saper kol
fareeha : mak aku ..
then tha moment i walked out from tha toilet ..somebody jux approached me and "hi nad" ..i turned and i was shockeddd very very shockedd should see my face ..hahahha ..hairul kau nye surprise menjadi lahh ..hahahah ! ..
i was happyy that my hafifah sayang could make it as well ..i miss youu aloottt ya knoww ..(:
thanks dear frens for tha dinner treat ! *hugs
firdaus send me home , reached home at about 10.30 pm lyke that ..and my family have also planned a surprise fer me ...they bought fer me cake as well ..hehehhee ..hhaaaapppyy2 me (:
thanks fareeha fer tha dress also ..and not forgetting my kak wani darlingg ..she has been busy with work but still take tha tyme to have a mini celebration wit me ..sweet kann dier ..she came to my hse ..then she say she want to go toilet ..
me : kak wani asl bwk beg seme pegi toilet
kak wani : hahah ,tak perr lahh ..
then a few mins later , she bring me to the living room ..with tha lights on and everything ..and then she sang burdae song fer me with a slice of choc cake on tha table ..cutee lah dierr eyhh ..and thanks fer tah necklace ..love you sis !

before this , we also had planned fer hairul burdae surprise ..kte nye surprise pon menjadi lahh kann ..hahahah..waited and waited fer hairul under his void deckk ..and tha moment he came down ..bring out tha cake , sang burdae songg ..hahaha ..fareeha has alrdy elaborated alot about this in her blog ..dier kan org yng pertama excited kalo psl ......hahahah ..

so now , is alrdy week 12 of school ..3 more weeks to go and im done with my ferst semester ..yeayy ! done with UT 2 ..UT 3 coming up somewhere in september ..
and fasting month is also comingg huhh ..hahaha ..
anw , yesterdae fer enterprise module , we need to wear formal ..hahaha ..waiting fer tha pics to be uploaded by my classmates ..monday , firdaus nye turn ..i want to see hym wearing formal ..cnferm heart-melting ..hahahahh !
fer communication module wk 13 ..theres formal wear to ..thinking what to wearr ..haiyaaa ..

anyways , been sick fer tha last few days ..fer tha ferst tyme , i went back home during lunch tyme last wed , during communication module ..firdaus was being a sweetheart , he ditched school , to send me homee ..(:
hehehhe ..
i know hes reading my blogg ..
padahal i kept my blog low profile also people can find out eyyhh ..hahaha ..
FINALLY , i want to say this ..firdaus joy , tha matrep is sweet ..hahahaha ..cnferm he kembang =p

now im stuck at home , dad paitao me say want to go see fireworks then he got ndp preview tickets from his frens ..but only 2 tickets ..so he decided to go dating with my momma ..haiyaaa ..then now i want to go out , younger bro dont allow , cause he'll be lonely ..so being a good sis*ehem* i stay at home and accompany hym ..

kaaay , thats all ..long post fer today after one month of not updating ..hehehe
take caree ...enjoy yr weekends ! (:

2010-06-12T21:06:00.001-07:00

2mrw school start alrdy ..haiiiizzz ..hahhaah ..but nehmind early in tha mrning can see tha 969 guy ..kan fareeha ? ..hahhaa ..
so sadd must go school alrdy while my other frens from other polys are having their vacation now ..hmmm
anyways , momma and dad created facebook account ..and masya allahh ..kecohhh ..they very excitedd ya knowww ..hahaha ..
and now waiting fer kak wani to come over my crib after work ..sunday also she has to work ..kesiann eyhh ..
got alot to update herr ..
im bored noww ..tha whole family went fer jemputann ..

ohh , letmee update about friday's outing ..
went to ECP with naz , fareeha , fifa , fik , syafiq , fir ..
early in tha mrning , fareeha and i semangat go sheng shiong , cause we wanna make sandwichh ..thought of cooking but since my maid wanna help outt ..so yahh ..fried macroni ..hahah ..
then fifa came over ..hhahaha ..kecohhhh gilerr uh , 3 girls in tha kitchen ..
then met naz at bedok then head to ECP ..settle everythang , then tha guys came ..
tired of laughinggg uhhh ..hahhaa ..tha most kecohh part when we played card game , "snap" ..hahah ! ..took alot of pictures , fareeha upload cpt2 kaay (:
then had dinner at mac andd off home ..
tiredd/sleepyyy but had funn ..hilang stress aku ..hahahah (:

still having problems with hym ..i dont think this thing gonna work out ..i miss those times when we we were laughing , giggling , sharing our problems ..tha part when he always try to become 'ustaz' ..hhahaha ..miss those times ..now , if i nvr merajuk with hym , he merajuk with me ..theres honesty but no trustt ..i cnnt go out with guys , i cnnt contact with guys , i cnnt go back late ..but youuu ..you can do whatever u want ..you can go out with whoever you want , can go back anytyme cause only you ya only you kann yng know tha limits ..only i must trust you , but you cant trust me kann ..im always tha bad onee kann ..u think i cant commit kann ..ya lahh all mee ..i know you care so much fer me , but you have no right to control me , control my lyfee ..my dad sndiri nvr control me lyke how you control me ..when i go back late , im tired , my dad asked me "dearr , hows yr day , had fun? " ..but you ..you questioned me lyke ....haiiii ..i need space to breathe ..

2010-06-10T03:02:00.000-07:00

hahaha ..my face selekehhh ..i love being selekehh ..hahha ..random eyhh ..

went out with nana yesterdae to have our lunch datee .. hahah ! ..initial plan to eat at simei , 18 chef but this sweetheart of mine , very choosy ..banquet also dont want ..hahaha ! btol tak nana ? =p so we proceed to changi airport to have swensens ..hahhaha ..

then walk around ..chill2 ..snapp pictures at firdaus punyee portt ..hahaha ..

ohhh , bumped into isya ..shes otw to hosp ..hope you're fynee dearr ..i'll ring you up soon ..sorry i was sleeping yesterdae when you call me ..hahah !

cooking fried macroni 2mrw fer picnic ..hhahaa ..

kaaayy thats all ..byeee ..take careee orayte (:

2010-06-08T19:25:00.000-07:00

next monday school start alrdy ! haiyaaa ..2 weeks flies so fastt ..
today going out with nana fer lunch date at ..i dunnoe-where ..i feel lyke going simei ..i want to go somewhere nearr uhh ..momma keep asking me to save moneyy ..
grandmomma is here , sleeping over ..and she kept pestering me to show her zahier pic ..hahaha..
and talking about hym , last few days been hectic fer tha both of us ..evertyme when we're in good terms alrdy , theres always something that make us quarrel again ..lyke fcuk uhh ..well , actually its me lahh ..i know i know situation is making things complicated ..thanks fer ya patience despite me saying this saying that , hurt you in any way , in your eyes you never see my flaws , you never gave up on me , you never fail to convince me , you never fail to keep ringing my phone ..haiyaa ..hahha ..jux see how things turn out , if we're fated to be together , no matter whatever comes in tha middle , we'll still be together ..if not , i can acceptt ..
thank you girlfrens fer listening to me expressing my anger , my sadness , my whatever ..love you all ..fareeha , nana , kak wani , isya , naz ..without all of you , i dont know uhh ..hahah
naz say this to me "eyh kau jadi lelaki sudah , kau ngan lelaki samer perr ego pehh besarr" ..kann kene sound ..hahhaha !
ohh , my 1.80 guy also ..eyhh how come he always text me during tha right tyme uhh , can you feel my sadness everytyme u text me ..hahahaha ! =.= ..he very nycee uhh layan kan me jerr ..butt hahahahah ..he suck in giving advices uhh ..tgh sedih2 , i can laugh yaa knoww ..

cant wait fer this friday , gg picnic with guy/girl frens at east coast ..

takee careee people ! ..have a nycee dayy kaay (:

2010-06-03T01:24:00.000-07:00

2010-06-02T20:11:00.000-07:00

good morningg ! its 11 am now ..hahahah ..
staying at home today ..
went out with fareeha , firdaus and hairul yesterdae to airport ..
lunch at popeyes and then chill around , hairul want to do his hwk and we kept shifting places from t3 to t2 and then back to t3 ..hahaha ..firdaus dapat port bahekk punyaa ..hahaha ..eyh and i jux realised that RP is tha only poly that is having hols now ? ..hahah ! i want to meet fifa ..TP start their hols next week izzit ?..yeay ! gg picnic maybe next week ..fareeha ! plannn ..lol !
anw , i'll upload yesterdae pics later ..
reached home at around 9 pm plus , before that went pasar malam with fareeha ..get fer tha whole family ramly burger ..hahah ..my younger bro fav ..hahaha ..see see , i know imma good sis no need to say one ..hehehe
had a good tyme ..laughlaugh ..hahah ..thanks lovely people fer tha day (:

i've been crying fer last few days , i swearr idk why i become very sensitive ..obstacles that are hard fer me to overcome ..
can you jux think about my feelings and feel tha pain ..
sometimes i hurt u because i myself is hurt ..
i was too sad to even pick up any calls or reply any msgs from hym ..and then i otf with fareeha and org2 tgh sedih2 , she make me laugh ..
me : eyh smlm dier kol aku 6 kali msg aku 3 kali , aku uat bodoh seyh
fareeha : wuahh , fiercee
me : eyh kau pon ckp suro aku uat bodohh ngan dier perr
me : aku suro kau sikit2 jerr
HAHAHAH ..
but anyways , thanks fareeha dearr fer listening to whatever that i have to say ..thanks fer tha advices too ..
insya allah i can go through all this by myself ..
haii ..what if one day , i walk of your lyfee ..how will you feel ?
what if tha moment i walk out of your lyfee , i wont turn back anymore , will u realised and say this 'shit , that girl really did love me before when i kept doubting her'
i dont want to pretend anymore , and i know all tha thangs i said to you may be abit harsh ..
now , i want to heck care fuck care ..hrrr

saying i love you is not tha words i want to hear from you ..

2010-05-28T06:27:00.000-07:00

heyya !

i know i haven been updating my blog ..lazyy lahh and im tired ..got back from sch do my Rj and then sheeleppp ..and im jeloz that frens from other poly only need to come to sch 3-4 days but i need to come for 5 days ..its lyke journey to go jb ..hahahha ..

anyway , before i start , i read fareeha blog and shes being veryy sweett ..hahah .aku tahu kau sayang aku ..hahahah ! shes been taking good care of me *ehem2 ..hahah ..zahier pon suke lahh kau jage aku ..wherever i go ,he will always ask me if im with fareeha , if yes then he wont ask me alot of qns ..hahahah ..andd fareeha will always go blablah on me whenever i say "eyh aku mcm mls nak blaja lagi"..okaay2 , i try not to get distracted kaay ..and i adore tha way she work towards her goal .. check my leo system and i got my third A but im still trying to work hard lyke fareeha she got almost to 10 A alrdy ..good jobb ..even during my understanding test i study using fareeha's powerpoint slides ..really really its good ..better than faci 6th P ..hhahahha ..

and i proudly want to say this ...I HAVEN BEEN ABSENT FOR ANY SINGLE DAY SINCE DAY ONE OF SCHOOL TILL YESTERDAE LAST DAY OF SCH BEFORE 2 WEEKS HOLS ..hahahahaha ! abehhhh bangge eyh dhirahh ..DUHH ! from pasir ris to woodlands tauu eventhough i cmplain alott i still go to school ..even now my dad has been really nycee to me buying me new hp ..sony ericsson vivaz pink colour ..yeayy2! ..love ittt ..thanks dad ! ,and getting me this and that ..let me go wherever i want to go ..because why ? ..he say this to me "kau nak uat apr uat lah aslkan kau maseh nak blaja" ..hahahaha ..

been sharing alot of stuffs with my parents nowadays ..haahh (:

anw , jux came back from my cousin's wedding ..i jux realised that everytyme when theres wedding my family lyke to have kude kepang ..hahhaha ..thenn get to meet my other cousins , catch up thangs ..and i can see how syirahCOUSIN eyes became teary when she update me with everythang ..i feel her painn , hugg herr ..i think i can learn alot from her , her mistakes ..but shes really strong ..aku tahu kau baek and kau blh jadi baek kalo kau nak ..i miss herr alott ..tha last tyme i saw her was last 2 years ..can imagine that not ? had funn at tha wedding , they asked me to karaoke but i dont wantt ..hahah ! maluu i ..in 3 years tyme my turn getting married ..hahah ! and theres this aunty asked me to add her in fb aft she we talk2 , aft she talk2 abt her son ..hahaha ! and she say this "cik suke tau maen game kt facebook kdg2 smpai luper nak masak" ..hahah ..cutee lahh eyhh ..

now waiting fer zahier to text me ..hrrrr ..i've been very sensitive fer tha past few days ..always merajuk with hym ..eyes get teary in tha bus in tha class ..hrrr ..to tunjukk perangaii , i didnt text hym when im out with my guys and girls frens to tha movie until 10 pm pluss ..hahahah ! then aft that i feel bad ..haiyooo ..

i love matured guy and decent-looking guy ..hhaha

2010-05-08T07:35:00.001-07:00

yesterday i was in tha best mood ever ..everything seem to go smoothly , i listen to fareeha advice and all ..but todayy , im dissapointed again ..wtf ! ..
to give tha fullest commitment were never easyy ..i dont lyke when i have to always report strength and i dont lyke to be control ..especially we're still not official yett ..you cant stop me from being frens with other guys ..1.80 guy is gg to be very upset with me if i were to ditch hym again while he is always there fer me and always putting aside tyme fer me when hes with his gf ..and i cant 4get how he stand up fer me when his gf dont lyke my presence ..and how he put me ferst before his gf ..ahhhhh , now u make me have second thoughts ..i am whatt i amm , i dont want to impress ..u feel pain , but do you feel my pain ?..when i cry when im still clueless ..when u still make me confuse ..u got to handle me when im at my worst before i can give my best ..
maybe , u deserve betterr ..
uhm , let see how things go ..

anyways , i was happy tha other day when i have problem with hym ..someone texted me ..
me : nana , selalu when im feeling down lyke this , 1.80 guy selalu text me ..mcm he always feel my pain ..but i think he busy uhh ..
nana : hmmm ..( i 4get what she say actually)
then later my fone vibrate and his name appear ..im lyke wondering how come when he went missing in my lyfee but then when im in tears hes backk ..

kaay besides that , im having understanding test next fri ..i malas want to study ..i malas want to school lahhhh mummyyy ..hahaha ..ohh but at tha same tyme i feel a little more motivated cause at last i get to kiss an A fer one of my module ..yeaayyy ! happyy i ..shld grab more of it soon .. finaally before i 4get ..HAPPY MOTHER DAY AND HAPPY 44TH BIRTHDAY TO MY MOMMA ! my momma dah tua =p I LOVEE YOU ALOOT , and i think imma gud daughter now ritee ..hehehe =p ..you are the super woman ..work work but still neverrr before neglect my bro and i ..mother always understand her daughter tha bestt ..((: i want to go hug her and kiss her now

ohhh , watched niyang rapik jux now with tha family anddd ..hahah ..not really scaryy lahh ..imgaine me tha penakot nak mampos ..dont have to cover my face ..hahah ..i can still laugh somemore ..wth ..

cant wait fer june hols , i want to go outttt ..rinduu uhhh ..gg picnic ..hehehe

kaay lahh , im gg out noww ..take care peoplee ..buhbyeeee ..enjoy yr weekends(:

2010-05-05T05:57:00.000-07:00

im freaking upset/sad now ..
fareeha told me to shut up and trust hym because only by doing that my mind won't think of tha negative thangs .. when i start to fall in love i have this problem when i am always scared of losing tha person ..
----note to myself : off hp ..and cry while sleeping ..
im sadddd right noww :/
no mood ..no mood to sch 2mrw :/
kaay byee

2010-05-02T01:16:00.000-07:00

the weekends are here again without me realising ..
excel assignment done ..hahah ..
school fer this week has been okaay ..check my grades and almost everything is B ..but nehmind lah , syukur alrdy ..still haven get an A despite me being the leader and despite having good comments , i dont to be the leader lahh , so tiringg ..pnat kene bbual , all yr teammates expect you to answer tha question asked by tha faci ..hahaha ..jadi slacker lagi bgs ..but somehow , sometimes i feel lyke quiting school and start working lyke some of my frens ..dpt duitt ..hmmmm ..but no no i need to focus and not gett distracted ..3 years onlyyy ..hrrrr ..
RJ is always pain in the ass as in after a day in school ..u feel lyke u jux want to go home and rest but then u have to get the RJ/quiz and evaluation donee ..hmphh ..but thanks to fik and fareeha ..fer always helping me when i dont have idea ...hahahah..thanks bro thanks sis ..thanks COUSIN ! ..hahahah ..got influenced by fir ..btol tak ngong ?
and i think school are getting fun ..in class , we can even chat with each other in msn ..hahaha ..even we have class conversation in msn and start bitching aboutt ..well only e37b mates knoww ..hahahah !
what elsee eyhh ...ohh i waantt to wish NANA , MUMMY WANI A HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAYYY ..aru nak jejak 18 ke , aru legal eyhh ..heheheheh*cheeky smile ..andd to NAZIHAH A HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY ! ..i love you alll ..muaaaacckkss !

im happyyy nowww ..hehehe ..webcam with zahier yesterdae and bibik was beside me so ask her to join in ..and she gave me tha green light ..as in hmmm she seem to lyke hym ..if he can impress my dad ..then wuahh i thinkk ........hahhaha !
been texting hym every single dayy ..last 3 years , we use to complain to each other about our problems and then lost contact and now we're getting closer ..hahahah !

anyways , read tha news about achik spin passed away ? ..i was sadd ya knooww ..i used to love his song ..especially his song "paling comel" ..i can relate to tha song noww ..
kau yang baek , sopan santunmu ..PALING COMEL DI HATIKU ..- fer youuu (:
waiting fer hym to text me at night ..he has been reporting strength to me ..and i feel bad cause i really suck when come to giving commitment ..his patience and everything really touch my heart ..i'll be tha best you never had ..insya allah ..i feel lyke his alrdy part of me ..and i feel lyke im alrdy sharing my lyfee with hym ..i almost forget how to fall in love until he came ..his almost close to perfectt ..i know he can guide me and take care of me ..i want to always be by your side , now and forever ..i found youu ..

2010-04-23T04:38:00.000-07:00

heys heys heys !
are you people still reading my blog ? hahah ..
anw , i came back from school early today , went home straight ..went back with naz and isman ..then naz met her boyf ..and i went back with isman and i saw someone ..who ?..cnnt say lahh ..i dunnoe who might read my blog ..i was scared so isman sent me till central ..aku tahu kau bace blog aku , thanks eyh ! menyusahkan kau jerr ..hahhah ..laen kali buat lagii ..huahuah..
ohhh , andd i've been going lunch with firdaus, isman and fikri fer tha past few days ..fareeha and naz always busyy :/ ..hahahahh ! but tha canteen eyh , tha queue sakitkan hatii ..
got my result grades fer maths, sci and enterprise skills ..got B fer tha three module ..yeaayy2 ! dont want anything lower than that ..but i want to taste an A soon ..pleaseeeepleaaseee ..hahaha !
i think im getting use to RP style alrdy , everyday presentation..
having understanding test in a few weeks time ..fast right ..and week 13 , im having formal presentation ...ohhh , and i joined a CCA while not really a CCA to me uhh cause no commitment required..my house farr mahh , i dont want to go home late and then get exhausted ..see dhirah very ngade2 one ..ahhaah..i joined CCA just fer tha sake of CE points , need to get 40 points and above at tha end of 3 years in order to graduate andd i hope i can clear it up during my ferst year cause i heard second and third year going to be extremely busyyy ..annd tha CCA sound fun like during F1 grand prix or something lyke that u jux have to usher and can get 6 points alrdy ..anyways , i lyke to do voluntary workk ..serious2 , not lying ..heeeehheee ..
kaaaay lahh i think thats all fer now , i update tha next weekends oraytee ..hahaha ..
bumped into fayyadhah when im walking out of school and she asked me if i want to sing with adilah cause they compose a song ..lyke very cute eyhh drgg ..hahahah ! ..but i veryy maluu lahh , my voicee tak sedappp howww ..hehheheh ..
ohhh ya last thing , met fifa tha other day and i huggggg herr ..i misss herr alooottt , sry i never join krg pegi mkn , meet awhile only :( ..mcm nak nanges uhh ..sumpah siaa aku rindu kau sgt2 , selalunye kau yng kol aku seme ..mcm sedihhh seyhh ..hope you're doing well inTP ..cuci mate tgk hot guys OKAAYY ? ..=p
kaay now , i think i need to online , zahier want me to webcam with hym i promise alrdy ..should be yesterdae but then i dont want cause my face very masai/sleepy/slengerr ..prangai eyhh ..hehehe ..
until he went lyke "i want to see your face as natural as possible , kalo boleh yr face biler baru bgn tdo"..hahhahhahaha ! ((:
oraytee , im donee ..veryy tiredddd ..fareeha big sister is really taking care of me in school , never allow me to get influence or CABUT fer classs ..okaaaayy kakkk ! saye tak degil ..padahal burdae aku dulu sebelum kauu ..hahhaha ! =p

2010-04-16T19:33:00.001-07:00

not going to update often ..im tiredddd ..everyday have to travel to woodlands but its okaay after awhile i'll stop complaining and i'll get use to it ..3 years makk oiii ! ..anytyme when im free then i update ..ferst day of school , and i got presentation to do and thats going to take place every single day ..plus quiz/RJ and evaluation to do ..anyways , RP orientation was funnnnnn ..make new frens ..but unfortunately we're not in tha same claz , my classmates theres alot of 18/19/20 ..felt that im tha youngest in there ..hahahh ..but i think i love tha Jam N Hop tha most ..everyone became crazeyyy ..waiting fer fayyadhah to upload tha pics ..waiting fer her to tag me and gimme her blog link also ..ahahahhah ..
going school , lunch and going back school from now onwards with naz , fareeha , fikri , isman ..yeayyy best balek ramai2 ..
k dah lah byee ..

2010-04-07T01:47:00.001-07:00

today im home tha whole day ..boredd ..so i end up reading my younger brother's true singapore ghost stories ..hahah ..
so i've been sickk tha past few days , perhaps tha whole family were sickk ..but im feeling better noww ..yeayy ! 2mrw can go out alrdy ..hehe ..going out with tha girls ..they want to go shopping , i dont think i'll be buying anythangg ..so tengok kan jerr lorr ..my momma dont let me spent spent spent ..thought of buying another pair of pump shoes but then my aunty got me 6 pair of diff colours , cute tau ..but i cant fit in so i gave it to munirah ..hehehh ..anw , i dunnoe if she still read my blog ..but i jux wanna say .. i miss you girl ..(: then my kind hearted aunty bought me another 4 pair ..so i think i dont need to buy anymore shoes ? ..but nehmind im happy cause i got myself a new spects , thats impt okaay ..school starting and i need spects spects spects ..yes , dhirah potekk ..ahahah ! im not tha person who go fer contact lens ..lazyy lahh ..cause what i noe ..when i get up from bed early in tha mrning fer school ..i jux want to grab grab thangs and woooshhh go out from tha housee ..senang kan hidopp ..heeh (;
andd im gg loyang 2mrw as well , to collect my testimonial ..theres one miss call from general office fer idk wad reason ..
next mon-wed , poly orientation and then thurs start of schooolll ..haiyaaa ..mls nyeerr aku nak sekolaaaaa ..
seriousssssss ..lyke not looking forward ..whyy ? ..i dunnoeee ..hehh
ohhh , and my fav guy call me ..hahahah ! ..happpyy ...i wanted to sleep alrdy when my hp vibrate and it appears as "dunnoe who" ..hahah ..i purposely change his name to that cause im angry with hym fer neglecting me ..hahaha ..but angry fer awhile only ..i shld understand that hes busy and tired after schooling ..
and one more thangg ..i dreamt about someone , if i were to type his name here ..everyone gonna be in a shockk ..i dunnoe why ..its lyke he wanted to say something to me but he jux end up staring into my eyes ..why eyh ?..he need help ? but i noe hes happy now whuatt ..i dunnoee ..hmmm ..no no , i dont miss hym , im not even thinking of hym ..hrrrrr ..

giving you a chance <3

2010-04-01T00:45:00.000-07:00

heeeeyyyyy ! :D
went out with hafifah darling yesterdae ..naz cant make it , jage anak kat umah ..hahaha ! ..then fareeha working ..so kte berdatinggg lahh ..hahaha !
i was bored so i die-die asked fifa out ..we planned to go out at 1 pm to have lunch ferst but at last i went out from my house at 2.30 pm ..fifa nye psl ..met her at pasir ris mrt ..then trained to airport ..i want to have popeyes ..its been a long tyme since tha last tyme i went there ..
anddd omgg , both of us kept laughinggggg gigglinggg ..so many funney thangs that i wont say lahh ..SECRETTT rightt fifa ?*winks ..padahal aku mls nak type ..lol !
HAHAHAHA ! ..and yeayps , update her with everythang , whatever that im going through and stuffs ..sry babe fer gg blablah on you ..hehhh ..
anndd eventhough its only tha two of us , i had funn ..funn laughing at people ! no lahhh ..kiddingg ..
kecohh kiteeee ..sikit2 ketawe smpai pecah peruttt ..
then aft that thought of coming over to naz's crib at bedok but changed our mind ..guess what ..we dunnoe where to go ..then fifa ajak me go see tha mrt routes on tha board to jux randomly pick any place that we seldom go ..haha , kental ..inilah budak2 yang takder bende nak buat ..free sgttttt ..we both were lyke tiong bahru or buona vista uhhhh ..then we decided on tiong bahru ..but ! at last we went paya lebar ..hahaha ! lamer sgt to get stuck in tha mrt ..hahaha ! but i shld follow my instinct and go to tiong bahru , i can bumped into hym seyh since hes having course arnd there ..i was playing around that i saw hym and he went lyke " huh u saw me ? ..alermakk , my hair tgh messy , im in a total mess " ...hahaha ! yes yes dhirah suke kacau org ! ..vain sungguh dierr .. then okaaaayy , when we reached paya lebar , we went to this huge this fashion shop ..andd we weren't busy picking any clothes that we lyke tau or shall i say we werent busy shopping , we were busy playing with tha clothes and giggle2 at some unique , people-wont-wear clothes ..fifa went lyke " eyh kau tgk baju nie dah ader built-in bra " ..and she was fascinated by those okaaaayyy ..hahaha =p and theennn we beingg playful , we picked this cute dress and try in tha fitting room , take pictures ..and then put back ..hahahaha ! kaaay all this was to kill tyme while waiting fer fareeha to finsh her work ..at arnd 6 pm met her at tanah merah ..then this girl very hungry ..so went to tamp , food culture ..had early dinner ..walked around ..laughed2 again this tyme with fareeha arnd , so more kecoohh dier kan makcik becokk ..reached home and im tireddd ..tiredd of laughinggg ..fun lah fifa kite nye date ..hahahahah !
anyways , tha other day i went shopping with my dad to buy wallet and this bag ..he spent arnd 100 plus ..until tha sales girl went lyke "eyh yr dad sayang you huh" and my dad went lyke " ya larr , my only daughter" ...awwwww ..he love to pamper me alott , and luckily my momma wasnt with us if not later she merajok with my dad fer spending that muchh ..hahahah ..ngade2 kann ? hee (:
and then guess who i saw when im in tha car ..fifffaaaa ! romantic ke perrr tompang motor sape tuhhh ..hahahah ! love to disurb herr ..kau jgn nak actiooonnnn ..heheee ..=p
kaay lah upload pictures laterrr ..gg out now ..

ohhhh , and im happy my fav guy text me ...hahah ..dhirah nie sensitive lahh , org tak msg/kol , later merajok padahal dier kalau tak msg/kol org bolehhh ..heehhh ..
i miss hymm ..tak bedekkk

and about my previous post , i know im abit down , but now im okaayy ..hhaha ..
its also my fault , tunjuk perangai fer half an hour nvr say anything otf ..eyh but then he go ZZZZ on me ..perangai maintainnnnn ...hrrrr ..
and i hope he can handle me when im at my worst ...hmmmm ..
its a relief when he can feel cmfortable with me , can open up .. and im not doing tha same ..but i have MY reasons ..im scaredd i develop feelings fer hym ..i scared if later he could unlock my heart and then broke it into pieces ..i need to take baby steps ..i need to think through ..and one more thingg , i feel lyke hes too nycee that im scared i dont deserve hym ..but whatever it is , we still have nothing gg on ..so im free to do whatever/anything i wantt ..

2010-03-30T19:13:00.001-07:00

i slept at 2 am and woke up at 8 am ..and im not even sleepy ..well , maybe i cant sleep well ..
and i dunnoe why nowadays i am always keeping things to myself rather than sharing it ..i mean lyke sometimes its so hard fer you to put in words to describe tha feelings ..
after quite a long tyme of being independent , no one special ..and then suddenly when you are close with someone alrdy ..its lyke you feel so awkward ..lyke difficult fer you to open up ..and furthermore , i think im still fragile and sensitive ..its jux .......hrrrr ..maybe we could only be friends ? ..i dont knoww ..
no wonder my momma went lyke "no boyf2 until you big alrdy okaay" ..see lahh , now how love is holding me back ..
i jux canttt ..sometimes words dont have to explain yr feelings maybe only tears ..

2010-03-29T00:21:00.000-07:00

since naz want me to upload tha pictures ..i think i update abit as well ..
fifa , naz and i haven been meeting each other lately to catch up/gossip ..ahahah..so yeahh we have cooking session ..andd tha three of us even went to tha wet market together to buy tha ingredients ..hahah ..i was busyy sleeping when naz kol me at 8.30 am ..cause we're supposed to meet at 9 am ..
naz : nad , kau baru bgn per ..
me : eyh tak lah , aku cumer baru nak mandi ..
naz : baru bgn uh tuhh ..
hehehhhehe ^.^ ..
so yeayps , im tha last one to get readyy ..met fifa at central ..then off to tha market ..
then had breakfast at loyang point , mac ..suddenly i feel lyke eating hotcakes ..hehhh
they came over to my place , and we cooked fer only lyke 45 mins ..hahaha ..kecohhh ..
anddd fuuuhhhh ...sedappppppp (:
my momma call me asked me not to finish everything ..since she'll be back late and she want to taste taste taste ..hahah
momma : sedapp , laen kali masak lagi
me : serious ? ..uh tuh lah , lps nie nak buat cupcake seme ..
momma : elehh , actioonn ..
hehehh
anways , had a good tyme with my girls ..meet soon meet soon ! but fareeha was missing since shes busy working kann ..but nehmind , i got a date with her next thurday ..shes quiting soon ..yeayy ! tak yah keje2 lah , sekolaaa dulu ..hehehehe ..and i dunnoe why people been asking me eyh nvr work uhhh ...aku punyee sukeeee uhhhh ...hrrrr ..
ohhh , and isya told me that theres this pervert who kept following her and kept seating very very close to her ...and she kol me , and im busy ..and she dunnoe what to do ..andd this part cutee , she cried ..cute lah tuhh perangai ..but then eiiisshh , scary seyhh ..ladies , be careful ! ..hehhh
ohhh , and i followed tha family to admiralty yesterdae and i saw this guy who looked lykee my ex , i swearr ..and then got this grandma came to me and asked me if i want to berkenalan with hym , her grandson ..and asked fer my numb ..cute per nenek tuhh ..but hahaha , hes younger than me ..maybe 14/15 ..hahahah ! my dad went lyke " eyh kau quit sekola , adr org nak masok meminang" ..hahahah ! and i should say cnnt uh , saye dah bertunang ! ..hahahah ! ..kaayy mentel , betunang ngan saper jerrr ..
kaaay lahh , i veryy sleepyyy ..now its 3.40 pm ..going out ? nooopppeee ..
*yawwnnnn
and omgg , im not active at facebook , twitter ..hhahah ! deleting it soon ? idk ..

i somehow know that you are someone who i can rely on , someone who can guide me through , someone who will appreciate me even when im at my worst , someone who can take care of me ..i learnt aloott from youu ..you are someone who i've been searching for all this while ..if we're fated to be together later in tha future , eventhough you're not my ferst , i'll make you my last one , my ONE AND ONLY ..

2010-03-23T19:51:00.001-07:00

Learn to appreciate the rainbow ,
after cursing the rain
its just lyke loving again
after experiencing the pain

-taken from someone's blog

when i was about to give up in love , you walked into my lyfee and make me trust love again ..
you are almost close to perfectt ..but im scared i cant commit ..

anyways , tha last few days , i haven been updating my blog cause nothing much happen ..jux went to my family chalet at aloha pasir ris ..
met tha cousins ..and im too young to be called an aunty ..hahaha !
andd guess what i have to 'babysit' 5 boys ..hahah ..
syabil : aunty ajak kite pegi swimming uh ..
me : tgh hujan ah ..nnti dah stop boleh
syabil : alah please lah aunty please ..
so , me being tha nycee aunty ..hrrr ..hahaha ..bring them to tha pool ..5 boys ..so peningg ..hahah ..
then celebrate tha march babies birthday ..kecohh gilerr ..my aunty were singing dancing ..and they keep saying "yang penting happppyyyyy" ..hahahah ..
and opppps i ate aloott ..all my fav ..seafood ! ..hehhh ..
then then , i dunnoe why this year quite a number of my cousins getting married ..and my cousin show me this powerpoint slide/game on her underage kursus rumah tangga ..
cousin : fun tauu , u shld go
me : yelah abeh i nak kahwin ngan saperr ..
hahahaha ! its been a long tyme lah since tha alst tyme i catch up thangs with my cousins ..and we even gossiped about ____ ..hahaha ..i dunnoe that my cousins know herr ..
then blablablah ..thats all ..

going out with my girls ..fareeha , naz and fifa this sat to bowling ..make sure all can make it eyh (: fareeha , jux came back from aussie ..and bought fer me and my momma some thangs ..heheh ..so nycee of youu ..
ohh , and school starting soon eyh ..lazyyyyyyyy ..
so besides saturday , wednesday , thursday , friday no plans ..hmmm ..tha weather is so nycee , everytyme , i feel lyke going out ..tha bed is calling me ..
okaayyy , take care all ! (:

2010-03-16T00:53:00.001-07:00

i have to cancel dinner date with my classmates ..because today is my dad birthday ..i 4got that today is tha sixteen of march ..until my momma went lyke "nak beli cake aper untk ayah" ..
sorry dear classmates ..meet you all soon ..aku rindu sama korang bnyk bnyk (:
so yeahhhh ..happyyy birthdayyy to my daddyyy ! :D going out at night , have to wait fer my momma finished her work ..thanks dad fer being a good role model fer tha family ..thanks fer taking good care of mama , adek and i ..actually im tha closest to my dad ..he love to pamper me ..only he can scold me in tha family ..haha =p
eventhough at times i do dissapoint hym .. but deep in my heart i always want to make hym proud of me , make hym happy ..i still rmbr when last tyme my dad have to struggle with 2 jobs just to give our family a stable income and a comfortable living , i see my parents hard tyme since im tha ferst child and that make me appreciate them more .. and i do really love hym so muchh ..his one and only daughter grew up and learn tha meaning of lyfee ..tha ups and downs ..and he was always there ..giving me advices , supporting me ..so i wanna say this MY DAD IS BETTER THAN YOUR DAD ..hehehh*cheeky smile

kaay now im waiting fer this makcik , nazihahhh to drop by my hse ..and im sleepyy ..i slept at 4 am and woke up at 9 am okaaayy ..hmphhh ..hehehhh ..

tuhan tunjukkan aku apa dia yang satu ituu

2010-03-14T19:46:00.000-07:00

heeeyyyaa ! (:
im in a good mood today ..hahaha ..talk to someone otf yesterdae till 4am ..and that was tha ferst tyme we talked otf so i laughed/giggled more than do tha talking ..hahaha ..until he went lyke "asl ketawe jer ..tapi tak perr lah , i lyke to hear your laughters" ..huahua ..
i think hes a nycee and mature person ..sampai make me nervous woii ..lol ! i think guys always used tha same tactic ..what i mean by this ? ..hahaha ...guess it yourself ..(:
and he remind me of someonee :/
kaay and guess whatt ..i need bibik to teach me how to cook ..whyyy ? .ader uh ..heheh ..
im still shy to post about hym ..lyke who is he and stuff ..its still tha early2 stage ..know what i mean lahhh ..so cnnt talk muchh ..but after i get cmfortable with hym , can 'click' well alrdy..then i think i can post his pictures and all ..(:
kaay so ..i've been busy fer tha past few days ..

wednesday----went to RP , andd ohh i think i lyke tha school and tha people ..hahah .. ..and tha guy who promote2 tha laptop is a RP student and i dunnoe why my dad talked to hym lyke he know tha guy fer so long alrdy ..and guess what he say "dek ni dah biasa sekola dekat , so biler kene jauh dier ader manja sikit" hahah ..my dad uh ! hrr ..hahah ..and fareeha got tha same promoter ..
tha guy : ader bdak pasir ris dah beli laptop nie
fareeha : ohh , is it nadhirah eyh ..shes my fren
tha guy : a'ahh ..ouh cool ..
info tak perlu eyh ..haha ..bdak pasir ris eyhh ..
then blablahblah ..ohh , saw afiqah too and she asked me to go school with her during tha ferst day of school ..so tolak my numb to her ..bestnyee , kte samer2 dpt same poly (:
i tried eating at tha canteen as well ..food very cheap eyhh ..hehh ..

thursday----went out with nana ..ferst to suntec ..went to IT show to check fer my dad tha price of tha GPS he wanted to buy ..quite packed eyh eventhough its during tha weekdays ..
then headed to vivo to have lunch and walked2 arnd since nana wanted to do some shopping ..ohh , and went to mac make-up shop , nana wanted to buy tha powder and theres this sweet kakak gimme free make-up tutorial using mac products ..haha ..but if i want to buy ..habis aku ..tha price is lykeee ***** ..bumped into my cousin as well ..she doesnt look lyke shes 18 more to lyke early 20s ..hehehh ..pnat tauuu jalan nana ! ..hhaha ! ..saw this guy who look lyke 1.80 guy ..but i dunnoe its hym or not ..cause in a rushh ..hmmm ..then went to sengkang metro , nana wanted to return her work uniform ..cheeyy dah bis attachment abehh suka ahh ?! ..ahahah ! (:
and she talked to almost everyone there and she show me this cute guy ..hahahh ..bought laneige eyeliner also ..then had dinner at mac donald , momma call that no one will be at home ..but when i reached home lucky adek and bibik alrdy at home kalo tak boringg uhhh ..

friday---went shopping with tha familyy ..hehehe ..spent 100 plus bucks ..hrrrr ..but i haven buy shoes ..howww ? i got colorful flats , i find them cute but i cant fit in ..so giving it to my girls ..(:

saturday--went to my abg sedare house ..love his house ..theres lounge and bbq pit downstairs ..no no , not condo ..its a ...whats that call eyh ..4get ahh ..

sunday--went fer my kak sedare engagement ..and she know tha guy since shes in sec 3 ..bestnyee ..hahah ..then meet tha sedare2 ..discuss aboutt tha family chalet this coming fridayy and my aunty went lyke "dah check in jer , nak g swimming dgn bikini ..bdak2 jgn sibok ..laki2 seme g solat" hahhah ..so kecohh tha void deckk ..anddd i want a gayboy as my bff cann ? ..hahah ..cnferm bestt ..my cousin got one ..and she told me that they can be yr gossiping fren ..hahaha ..and also besides that im dissapointed with my another cousin ..i cant believe whatever that happened ..no wonder lah long tyme didnt see her ..wanted to tell my momma but then its a tight secret ..so i think i could not and i've alrdy promised ..but she need moral support seyhh ..if im in her shoes idk what i will do to myself ..i hope she come back home soon cause i miss her alooott ..everyone makes mistakes ..hmmm ..

so thats all ..draggyy ?..hahah ..orayte , not gg out today ..gg dinner with guy/girl friends this tuesday at simpang bedok i think ..kaay do take care of yourself people (:

2010-03-09T00:01:00.001-08:00

waffle ice-creamm ! ..hahaa ..been craving fer this fer lyke 3 days ..hahaha !

went out yesterdae with tha girls to have dinner ..yeayyy ! ..
meeting at 5.45 pm and 5.35 pm i jux went out from my house ..baekk kann ..
busy msn-ing ..hahaha ! *ehem
andd naz make me paiseyyy ! ..i want to take tha train from pasir ris rightt ..and then my ez-link left $1 pluss ..i want to top up but i dont want to delay any tyme ..called naz ..
me : naz , kau rase cukup tak duit ez-link aku nak lepas naek mrt
naz : cukup lah , aku rase ..kau top-up kat airport jerr
andd then i confidently tapped my ez-link ..3 times okaayy ..and tha thang refused to openn ..paiseyyy ..because people are alrdy behind me ..so have to make selamba face and turn arounddd ..naz ! seme kau nye pasaaaall ..hahahah ..
then meet tha girls at tanah merah ..then trained to airport ..had swensens ..and im HAPPY ..got my waffle ice-creamm ..sedappp kannn korangg ..cptt sioll habiss ..hahah ..cause we share tha dessert ..then girls talk ! hahah ..update each other with everythangg ..
then naz didnt joined us ..so fareeha and i trained to tamp ..walked walked ..
and i think i saw tha guy that i adore last tymee ..ahahah ! ..dah tak handsome ahh skrgg ! ..hahahaha ..=p
reached home around 10 pm ..and im tiredd ..i dont know why also ..sleepyy lahh ..
kaaay lahh ..im chatting with someonee , and i still choose hym to cmplain2 ..cause he'll be tha one giving me good advices..and he say this .. "if u boring , online jer mlm ..i try my best to entertain you eventhough i know its gg to be diff from hym" ..hahaah ! (:

not gg to send my aunty at airport today ..accompanying my adekk at homee ..i know a good sis =p ..2mrw , gg RP and gg shopping with my parents ..and then thurs , going out with nana ..
ohh and lastly , i hate 1.80 guy ..hmph ! last tyme u have so much tyme fer me and now no moreee ..nehmind , next month im starting school ..andd i'll be lyke ohh-i -think-i-forget-you-because-i-have-new-friends-and-i-am-busyyy ..hmph ! hmph ! ..thats what you are doing to me nowww ..sedihhh :/

2010-03-07T23:58:00.000-08:00

i miss school ..kan fifa ? (: and i found my pic with kak wani when im in sec 2 ..hahaha !

2nd post of tha day ..im bored ..and im sleepy ..mampos aku ..in 1 hour tyme i need to meet naz and fareeha ..fifa darling nvr follow cause she got something ..nehmind lahh ..kluaa with you soon orayte ..i have to train to tanah merah alone ..hmphh ..hahaha ! ..andd tha reason im updating is because of fifa also ..she kol me , asked me to go down ..she action with her helmet all ..action ah kau ..tak nak kluaa ngan kite psl kene naik public transport kan ?! ..ahhah no lahh kiddingg ..and she was being VERY SWEET ..she make a cute/sweet/simple card fer fareeha , nazihah and i ..im touched when i read your card lah fifa ..tak sangke kau blh jadi sweet gituu ..anyways , if you're reading ..this post is meant to be fer you ..dont worry lah kaay , we will still meet up ..and you can call me anytyme you want ..always be here fer you ..when you're sad , you want to kol me also cannn ..heheh ..promise me that you'll continue to study hard kaay , jangan separuh jalan ..(:

and dont worry i wont forget you onee laaahh kaayy (:

you make me tear when i read your card ..

lovee yaaa *hugs kiss *

ohhh thanks fer everything yaaa ..fer entertaining my whatver shites seme during sec 3 and sec4 ..i cant believe tyme flies ! ..all of us are growing up ..when im sad/angry/happy seme you were there ..always supporting and believing in me ..thank youuu ..

they say TRUE FRIENDS STAY through thick and thin ..they dont leave you ..always by your side and treat you lyke tha most precious thangs in tha world and they nvr say they regret being your friend or say i dont lose anything if im not your friend ..sincerity and honesty play an important role here .. and i want to say thank you , to you , HAFIFAH cause you were one of them ..without FRIENDS i am nothing .. treat them well , cause you never know when you need them ..

chatting with my long lost msn friend ..and AGAIN ..im always STM ..mesti org sedihh eyh if i keep forgetting them ..hmm ..you know when i have to think hard about things that happen about 2-3 years ago make me feel lyke i lost my memories ..hahaha ! selengerr uh dhirahh ..and i rmbr hym at lastt! he was tha one that gave me lots of advice when im in sec 2/3 ..last tyme hes in poly and now taking part-time degree ..cpt perr ..and now he was lyke "dah kakak2 eyh skrg , dah nak masok poly ..dulu u're only 14/15 gitu" ..and he dont let me call hym abg he went lyke"kalau 10 years diff boleh lah , nie aru 5 years diff jer make me sound old"..hahaha !

2010-03-07T17:24:00.000-08:00

Mrningggg !
made twitter alrdy ..so follow me kaay ..cause most probably i'll be tweeting more than blogging ..but since sat when kak wani make me twitter i've been tweeting using my fone ..hahaha ..and kak wani thanks *kiss* ..hahaha ..
talked otf with kak wani last night .. we were talking and talking suddenly no topic to talk about alrdy .. and i dunnoe whats with her at nightt ..she kol her ehem ..

kak wani : eyh bobal kurang ajar perr , tak derh cara eyh
Tha guy : huh ..aner ader kurang ajar , i suro u tunggu jap jer seyh , nak bukak earpiece abeh u letak
kak wani : ye larr , u bukak earpiece mcm satu tahun ..u bayar kan my bill ke ..

HAHAHA ! nie lah laki bini gado , i dont want to masuk campur ..busted sia kak wani ..hahahahha ! funneeyy
hahahahha ..and she make me scared youu knoww ..she was talking to me and told me that she heard something outside ..im trying very hard not to listen to what she was saying ..and kak wani giler she laugh non-stop when i say "eyh jangan make me scared lah , later when i want to kencing kat luar , i scared seyh" ..hahahh ..
anddd she dare me to kol ____ and i did ..kak wani ! i hate you fer making me do that ..hahahah !
so today , going dinner with fareeha and naz at airport , going swensens ..i was talking about waffle with ice-cream on top and now fareeha is also craving fer it ..heehh ..
meeting them at tanah merah later at 5.30 pm ..yeayyy ! cant wait to meet themmm ..(:
and this week my parents take off fer two days , and yeay im going shopping ..
and now my nose is bleeding ..hrr ..i think tha weather uh ..need to drink lots and lots of plain water ..

i can stop thinking of you bt i cant stop missing youu ..i hate you ..i hate youu ..

2010-03-05T00:59:00.000-08:00

im bored right now ..
tha whole day at home ..jux had my ice-cream ..i want waffle with ice-cream on top , im CRAVING fer it ..nana ! nak g swensens ? =p ..ahahha !
in tha morning went to pasir ris C.C to get my singpass done ..and now my enrolment process is almost done ..and tyme really flies ..i very mls to start school next month ..i think too much rest alrdy ..andd hrrr ..from pasir ris travel all tha way to woodlands and then travel back all tha way to pasir ris ..hahah ..kaay , i dunnoe why im cmplaining ..padahal blum start school tau ..
supposed to go out with tha girls fer bowling 2mrw ..but then most of them cant make it ..so have to change it to monday but have to wait fer this girl , fareeha to finish her work ..which means yeay ..will be going fer dinner date with my girls ..bgs ah tak panas pon ..ahahahha ! ..kaay , ngada2 ..=p
ohh , kak wani asked me to make twitter and so shes making one fer me ..manja btol ahh ..hahaha ..
uhm , i dunnoe why i feel so sad yesterdae but today A BRAND NEW DAY ..hahaa ..im feeling better ..way way better ..i think i have stop thinking about hym ..whatever ..

2010-03-04T00:09:00.000-08:00

yaaaaaaa , thats what im feeling right now ..

but i have have have to stop thinking of you ..stop missing you ..cause YOU , LOVE is jux holding me backk ..HOLDING ME BACK ..

sometimes i jux feel that tha feelings i have towards you is a mistake ..a MISTAKE ..yes , we laugh , we giggle we can 'click' but yet theres so much diff in us ..friends , shld understand what i mean by this ..but yet , im still proud of you cause i know you always wanted to be a guy thats close to perfectt .. ..i dunnoe if im saying this jux because im trying to deny all tha feelings ..but then i jux have to leaveee ..leaveee ..i jux have to walk away from your lyfee ..and i hope i can do that ..TO MANY things left unspoken ..its lyke we KNOW it ..but cant put it in words ..and i've been waiting so long ..thats tha reason why i hate about ME falling in love ..makes me weakk ..i will get stuck with ONE guy fer a long tyme ..

can someone help me pleaseeee .....omggggg ...mcm nak nanges ..i jux feel lyke turning back tyme and those tymes i shouldnt have neglect you ..if only i know , i should have give extra attention to whatever you say last tyme and not take it as a joke ..hrrr..i jux cant be lyke last tyme , i cant be close with you anymore ..fer my good ..i know myself ..one day , you will realise that im fading away from your lyfee ..but still i miss you ALWAYS ..*look at tha moon*

i care fer you ..i cry fer you ..i miss you ..in silent ..

i even change his contact name in my phone to dunnoe who ..hrrrrr ..

i feel lyke sulking ahhh ..i was saying this to fifa and she went lyke "dont sulk cause you never know who will fall in love with your smile" ..hahaha ..

and im chatting with isya now ..

introducing syerah, says:
altho i dont think i have been in ur shoes before, i think???
introducing syerah, says:
but i know how it feels
introducing syerah, says:
but try ur very best not to strain ur friendship with him
introducing syerah, says:
just bcuz ure afraid of falling deeper
introducing syerah, says:
u can pick urself up now, its not too late :)

thankk youu sweetheart..i guess im not as strong as you ..

2010-03-03T00:35:00.000-08:00

my date ..hahah

2010-03-03T00:20:00.000-08:00

fareeha , nahhh amek tha picx ! hahah ! ..theres still somemore but then lyke not nycee ..gelap , not clear , i think tha sunlight ..tha one we used self-timer ..but if you still want , tag me okaay ..then i post it up ..(:

2010-03-02T01:44:00.001-08:00

nana told me that my previous post sound sadd ..but then i am happy now ..hahah ..got to chat with hym ..hehehe ..haapppyynyee ..tapi happy skejap jer ..i dunnoe why ehh ?
anyways , my dad birthday is coming this 16 march ..thought of calling RIA to sabo hym ..but how eyh ? ..i dont know tha number lehh ..
hahaah ! ..
tha weather nowadays is lykeee hrrrrrr ..panasssnyyee ..hows people living in tha west/north ? ..hahahhh
ohh and one other thang i dunnoe if i should make twitter account ..almost every human being are having it now ..but lyke so kental lyke that only now i start making one ? ..hahah ..i dunnoe ahh ..but macam bestt ..
got to know from my aunty that my cousin getting married in a few months tyme which is shocking ..shes only 19 or 20 this year ..if dah kahwin , can still school or not ah ? ..if lyke that i also can kahwin lah in lyke 2 years tyme ..hahahah ..kan kan isya ? =p
anddd my another cousin is pregnant ! yeay ..another cute baby going to call me aunty ..hahah ..can i name tha baby if its girl to eryana falisya ..nycee kann ? ..lol !
so this month im looking forward fer tha family chalett ..
and ohhh im still confused about tha enrolment package lahh ...so many thangs to do ..i took a passport size photo alrdy ..and my face ! uglyy ! haha ..stupiddd ..
last thang , i was bloghopping and i saw this guy who remove all his tattoos jux fer his gf ..going through all tha pain fer tha girl ..how sweet ..
uploading ALL tha picx soon ..fareeha , sorry fer tha delayyy kaayy kaayy ..(:

2010-03-01T00:02:00.000-08:00

2010-02-28T17:01:00.000-08:00

ferst of marchhh uh todayy ..so fast ..3 months alrdy not doing anything ..next month starting school , and i dun feel lyke schooling ..ahahah !
anyways , i paitao plan(s) last week ..
fifa : nad friday jadi tak ? ..
me : HUH ?! friday adr aper ?!
fifa : kau luper ? ..kte nak g swimming ..
then on friday i got a date ..and i totally forget about tha swimming thingy cause fifa got 3 free tickets to wild wild wet ..
so because of me ..fifa have to goreng her boss and we went on tha thursday instead ..soorryy soorryy ..but you still love me kan ? ..hahahah !
and then had breakfast at around 10 am plus , mac downtown east ..
and then at around 11 am plus we so semangat alrdy ..
and then guess what we saw on tha signboard ..MONDAY-THURSDAY 1PM-7PM , SATURDAY,SUNDAY, PUBLIC HOLIDAYS 10AM-7PM ..
giler kann ? ..lyke whuaaatt 1 pm ? swimming ? when tha sun is scorching hot ..bodohh
thought of watching dear john while waiting and then movie is also not readyy ..
went to k box ..they charged one person 14 bucks which is okaay lah plus lunch ..but we jux ate lehh ..then dunnoe where else to go ..naz and fifa went to my house and watched santau ..then around 1pm plus ready to swimmm ..hahaha ! ..we laughed alott i guess ..i enjoy myselff ..we even played truth or dare ..hehe ..ohh and theres "slide up" which i take it before with isya tha ferst tyme and then tha second tyme with naz and fifa i didnt want to take cause im afraid of height actually ..having said that i love to challenge myself so i took it again ..naz and fifa reaction were expression-less ..andddd wuuuu ..funnn ..fifa asl tk nak naik ?! ..seram tapi best ..and then theres one part naz laughed at me ..cause i went lyke "eyh nak naik slide yellow eyh ? ..air dier deep tak uh kat bawah , kalo deep kau catch aku kat bawah" ..kental nak mampos lah aku nie ..thennnn around 4 pm plus , went to KFC with fifa while naz make a move ..hah , dier pon adr date at night lah kann ..hahah ..then walked to whitesands , library ..then dad fetched me up to take my momma ..
and nowww i got sunburn ..i have to always put layers and layers of powder to cover tha sunburn ..hahaha !
then on fridayy , i almost paitao tha plan also cause i have to take care of my younger brother ..but then at last i still can make it ..supposed to fetch my date(isya) from school , but then she independent ..so meet at whitesands ..had lunch at BK , talked talked laughed laughed ..dewi came along ! yeayy ! its beeen a longg tyme since tha last tyme i saw her ..dah kakak2 JC seyhhh ..haah !
then dewi went off ferst fer her dance ..then isya and i went to cotton on ..eyh is tha denim vest at cotton on fer sale ? ..then went to library ..
bumped into my physics teacher and she went lyke "eyh shes yr sister ? ..you both look alike "..hahaha !
kaay lah thats all ..
gotten tha enrolment package ..but then tha orientation form is not inside ..calling RP later and i want to clarify some stuffs ..so confusing lahh ..must do one by one ..going woodlands next week too ..
orayte , thank you fer dropping byy ..take caree ..

last tyme i used to off my hp at night but then now i put my hp ALWAYS beside me cause im always waiting fer you to ring me up at night lyke how you used to last tyme ..and when i wake up theres no calls from you ..i told myself , nehmind maybe you're busy and you'll call me 2mrw ..it continues every single dayy .. it hurts to wait but i still waitt ..i want to tell you that i miss you alott but im scared ..i want to tell you that i need you but im scared ..cause i know my presence now is not that important to you ..your brothers2 need you more than me perr kann ..
fav guy : miss me tak ?
me : takk uhh ..
fav guy : hmph ..tk perr2 ..
when all that gonna happen again ..all those laughters ..memorable ones ..
fav guy : u okay tak ? ..tuh uh dulu org nak dier , dier tak nak ..sekali kte dah kawan lamer pas tuh kahwin eyhh ..
i rmbr everythingg you used to sayy .. all tha promises you made ..
theres some more i want to type but i scared you people know who im refering to alrdy ..
i miss you i miss you i miss youuu ..i thought of giving hym facebook msg but i scared he wont read ..i feel lyke going to his school , and wait fer hym outside ..i want to hold his hands and told hym not to leave me ..i feel lyke calling and texting hym everyday but i cant uh ..i dun lyke to make tha ferst movee ..i needdddd you nowwww ..i feel crying now alrdyy ..

2010-02-22T00:10:00.000-08:00

i've been sick fer tha past few days ..
nie seme pasal KAU bodoh ..hahaha ..
feeling better , dah sembuh pon (:
anyways , this weekends spent some tyme with my friends since last weekends dah spent tyme with my family kann ..
my going out tyme also change abit cause friends working mahh so have to go out on sat or sun ..
saturday , my parents went out and everybody in tha house busy buat keje sendiri ..bored ..ring kak wani up ..then met her at around 5 pm plus gitu ..went to fly kitee ..(:
i thought tak bnyk org sekali ah kau bnyk org melayuu oiii , ader mcm picnic ..next tyme i bring drink/food seme eyhh kak wani ..ahahah !
hahaha ..joined kak wani's brothers ..FUNN , i tell youu ..
we were so kecohhh ..love tha windddd ..can you imagine our kite flew until tha middle of tha road ..aiyaaa ..kecohh giler ..all of us were screaming , "ulur ulur ulur!"..hahahh ..until passerby stopped and looked at our kite ..hahaha ..going again next saturdayy ..beli kite baru uh , i want tha smiley face one ..cutee siaa ..hahah ..and i love tha atmosphere at night ..cause tha kite(s) got lampu blink blink ..nyceee ..hahah ..her adq ajak go red house but naseb tak jadi ..hahah ..penakott sikittt aku nieee ..
then on sunday went to accompany fareeha to tamp one , supposed to go fer dinner with her on friday then i sickk :/ .. ,ohh met fifa too ..(: naz cant make it ..jumpe soon okaay makcikk ..
i haven been to tha tamp one rooftop ..went there and hrrrr ..not ggoing there again except at night only ..panasnyee ..hahahh
theres fish SPA fer only 10 bucks ..fifa nak try but i scareddd ..hahaha ..next tyme ahh ..
had long john silver ..then off home ..
then accompany my parents go sheng siong plakk ..hahah ..my dad skrg kan dah busy ngan his new hobby , he can spent a few hundreds on his fishtankk ..haiyoooo ..
going shopping with my momma next month ..
fareeha and momma doing OT starting from tuesday onwards ..hahahh ..
and talking about fareeha , i told my momma about tha guy that fareeha talk about ..haha ..dont worry lah fareeha , my momma understand , my mum give her green light ..hes a nycee guy ..go ahead ..lol ! nanti kalo krg together ke aper , dier nak antar kau pegi sekola , amek aku sekali eyh ..tompangg ..hahah ..kau suke dier psl dier ader kerete kan !! ..haha ..no lah , kiddingg ..(:
and my momma and fareeha eyhh kept gossiping about their workplace ..about hang kebun lah who i also dont know ..funnneyy ..hahah ..my momma went lyke "dier pikir aku budak2 ke per , suro aku shhhhh" ..lol ! alot of ceritaa lah dorangg ..
so got a date this fridayyy ..hahaha ..with isyaa ..going simei to have lunchh ..
then saturday going out with tha girls ..pegi karaoke i thinkk ? ..dah cnferm plan , kol me okaay (:
kaay lah , upload tha pictures ..after i get all of themm ..
and im deleting facebook soon ..bo-ringgg ..
i checked RP's website and im starting school on 15 april ..hmmmm ..

talked otf with kak wani tha other dayy ..and whatt she say somehow make me realised that maybe its karma ..
kak wani : that tyme dier pernah kol me per tyne wheres nadhirah but i say yr hp get cnfiscated ..tapi padehal tak kann
me : heheeh .... eyh ? ..sweet nyee dier ..tapi tuh seme dulu seyhh ..
kak wani : tuh uhh , tipu org lagii ..
hahahah ! i fcuking miss old timesss ..
nie kau nak balas balik perrrr ..
but nehminnd lahh ..maybe this is how you feel last tyme when i ignored you ..
note to myself : theres a reason why a person have to leave you behind ..be grateful cause at least he was there before to make you happy ..
maybe i cant depend on hym too muchh ..he has his own lyfee ..i cant demand fer his tyme , cause i have no right to do so ..all i can do is to wait and wait ..

you're my favourite guy

2010-02-16T18:01:00.000-08:00

taken from nana's blog ..and i know how she feels ..thats exactly what im feeling now too ! ..

theres alot of WHY in our head rightt ..haha ..i think we need to meet an expert to ask their opinion ..ahhaa ..or can we have a heart check-up ..heheh ..

2010-02-16T17:17:00.000-08:00

hahah ..okaay im back after tha long weekends ..i vely vely tha lazy to update but friends ask me to so okaay lahh ..
so this few days , tha holidays i mean ..i've been spending tyme with my family , only family ..hehe ..including valentine day ..hahah ..
saturday
- went to grandmummy/daddy house ..
sunday
-had breakfast at bedok
-went cycling at east coast
-went expo , tha kahwin2 makan2 ..hahah ..and it was fully packed ..hrrrr ..
-had lunch at geylang
-went to giant to buy some groceries ..ahahha ..
-homeee
-had maggie fer dinner ..haha
monday
- whole day at home

tuesday
-had breakfast at KFC compass point ..ohh and i know alrdy wheres tha sengkang swimming complex ..haha
walked around compass point , tyme check and its only 10 am plus ..early huh ..wanted to go tha lib and then it only open at 11 am ..hahah ..then i saw theres lion dance people preparing to do a performance infront of metro ..ape lagi ..from tha fourth floor ..i very kiasu ..went to tha ferst floor ..then pushed my way through to stand in front ..hahah , sebok jer eyhh ..lepas tuh , wuahhh piang eyhh ..i thought i was alrdy infront but theres still people trying to push their way through they went lyke "excuse me excuse me "and stand infront of me ..macam maner tuh ..hahah ..geram ..im alrdy short and i can only see tha HEADS of tha people infront of me ..hahahah ..irriitaaatinggg ..kaay i lyke this part as i was BUSY tip top-ing ..i saw this hot security guard standing beside me ..i saw hym behind me at ferst ..and i kept looking when hes not looking ..hahah ..nana ! i think i know lah who you meant ..your workplace got hot security guard ..haha ..then went in metro ..saw nana , she was busy holding pails to wipe her counter ..aiseeymann dah glamour2 abeh kene pegang baldi ..apa dah ..chey2 , she with her uniform with her heels nampak mcm professional ..haha ..almost never recognised her ..
then went to bossini and momma bought me a blouse ..haha ..(:

so thats all lahh ..ohhh and naz and fifa if u're reading this , fareeha want to have a dinner date with all of us okaaay ..caann ? ..hahah ..ring me up ladies ..and naz eyh aku suro kau call aku balek biler kau sampai rumah ..abeh kau tak kol2 balek ..tk sampai2 rumah ke ? pengsan along th way ? ..haha ..and fareeha cnferm cpt2 (:
one more thang ..kak wani gave me a shocked yesterdae ..she jux came back from hosp ..get well soon okaay sisterr ..love you ..cpt sembuh then we go fly kite kaay ..hahahaha ..
ohh and i thought of making chatango ..and removing my tagboard ? ..so you people , anyone can msg me or okaay shall i say chat ? can ask me anything lah if you all want ..and if im offline and then i'll reply offline msgs in my post ..sounds good ? ..(: ..hahah ..but idk yet ..and i feel lyke deleting my facebook ..i think im not even active in Fb ..i only accept friend request ..boringg uhhh ..if only i haven deleted my friendster , i want to read old comments ..:/
orayte , till here ..and i feel lyke going karaoke ...againn ..haha ..or i feel lyke going to tha beach ...
and im craving fer mcFlurry :/
take care ! have a nycee day ! :D

2010-02-11T18:16:00.001-08:00

if i only see you in my dreams ,

then i wanna sleep forever ..

hehe (:

2010-02-09T17:43:00.000-08:00

went out with tha darlings yesterdae to town ..
had lunch with nana at mac jack , whitesands ..had fish n chips and sprite with vanilla ice-cream on top ..marvellous ..hhaah .. then trained to tamp since nana wanted to get herself a new wallet ..and then went to mondo , this part i likee ..i dont know why i love heels ..as in jux to try and look at them ..but i dont lyke to wear them often ..blisters ! blisters ! ..they say you have to bite tha shoes ferst ..lyke really bite or whatt ? ..hahah ..i try almost every shoes ..hahah tapi padahal tak beli tau ..then when we're done , ring kak wani up and met her in tha train ..and something funney happened ..and i was laughing until im in tears ..in TEARS OKAAY ..haha ..so paiseyy ..and then kak wani looked at me , "rabak per " ..ahahh ....off to somerset ..went to 313 ferst ..nana do tha shopping , kakak2 dah keje kan ..chey2 ..ahahh ..my momma always dont trust me when im gg shopping with my frens cause she will say "nanti duit aku bagi kau seme abis" ..so im gg shopping with her ..i need to buy tha skirt at cotton on ..accompanied kak wani to takashimaya fer job interview ..lucky theres some bench to sit ..give our legs a break..mcm nak patah ..then to far east ..nana was craving fer fried mars bars ..i was lyke aper tuh .. she mati-mati asked me to try ..i was lyke "sedap ke , mcm tak selere jer"..then when i had my ferst bite tha fried mars bars realllyy melted in my mouthhh ..nyceeee ..nak lagi nak lagi ? ..ahahah ! went home early by 7 pm im home ..since kak wani got penalty , must be back before 7 pm ..she was binget along tha way ..hahah ..but she still sweet by sending me until tha traffic light near my house ..saw alot of secondary people ..i miss schooling lahh ..next tyme tengok movie nakkk ? ..
ohh and i didnt know that now im using adult fare ..i want to top up 5 bucks and then tha uncle went lyke "nie dah tak sekola kan , tunggu result kan ..dah kene top up $10 , adult fare" ..i was so selengerr and went lyke "ouh eyh "..hahahah ! haiyaaaa ..patutlahh cepat abis ez-link aku niee ..
andddd i cant wait to do my hair ..doing at reds ..since my momma fren is a regular customer there so i can get a 20 % off ..ahahah ! ..asal seme aku buat seme nak discount eyhh ..haah ..i gonna have a personal hair stylist ..best nyee ..stepping orang kaya jer ..
anddd im happy natasha , my classmate will be in rp and same course as me ..hahaha

i kept reading your text msg ..and i kept laughing , you make me sound so pampered/sensitive/dependent ..
but you're cutee ..hehe ..
when i wake up when im going to sleep , i think of you ..why eyh ?
i miss old times ..when you are always there ..whatever it is , time may pass but i still miss you and you'll always be in my heart .. i used to neglect you but this tyme i really mean it ..you can count on me ..
hukhuk :/ , mcm nak nanges ..isya gonna laugh when she read this ..nadhirah dulu ngan sekarang tak bnyk diff ..gembengg ..hmmm ..its not that im in love but is .....i dont know ?

2010-02-07T16:44:00.001-08:00

i hate it when my family members leave me alone when im sleeping w/o telling me that they're going out ..make me so confused when i woke up until i always have to ring my momma ..hahah !
anyways , met my sayangs , isya ! kak wani ! last friday ..
met isya ferst and off to simei to jux chill/hang out ..at starbucks , i likeeee tha windddd ..hhhaha ..mcm duduk kat tepi pantai ..feeling2 ..hahaha ! catch up a few thangs with isya ..talk talk gossip laugh laugh ..and guess whatt si mentel nie tell me ..
isya : dhirah , i nak kahwin tau ..
me : samer ahhh ..next two years kaay
isya : no no i want to kahwin next week ..
and then we get hyperr ..hahahah !
then kak wani came , and then more kecohh ..dah lamer tk jumpee isya and kak wani at one go ..snap snap pictures and kak wani's younger bro tag along , isya and i were flirting with tha pri 4 boy ..hes cuteee ..veryyy ..hahah ..dah besar cnferm handsome ..he keep covering his face when we want to take his pictures ..but at last dapat jugak ! ..hahah ..
then kak wani went home ferst ..accompanied isya to get her old chang chang ..i think tha tha three of us gonna be veryy veryy busy from this year onwards ..isya taking her Os , kak wani getting a job soon and me ..starting school soon ..and i think poly lyfee is more stressful ..
and then when i was about to board tha train back to pasir ris ..i bumped into nadia ..mcm best gitu tengok people dah start workingg ..
im looking forward fer 2mrw but i dont think my momma gonna gimme a alot of $$$ , i got penalty ..hahaha .. since i bought some stuffs alrdy at robinsons expo ..my momma spent 164 bucks on everything ..and i think its not even a sale ..samer jer tha price ..
momma : *sad face* ..altogether 164 bucks seyh ..i never buy anything pon ..
me : tak perr2 , later i teman you go buy yr baju ..maner geylang ..arb st ..ckp jer ..
momma : okaay *start smiling*
me : anw , jgn luper im going shopping with nana tau ..
momma : nak shopping aper lagi nie ..
me : 2 baju baru aner cukup ..
then she keep quiet ...pleasee2 ..heheh
but my momma is still tha best mother/best friend lahh ..she keep telling me that shes accompanying me to do my hair and not only that lah , she sponsor ..hehe ..sweet mother (:
and i actually google which salon people recommend and its tha reds salon ..i was shocked to death when people say it cost them 300 bucks but then when my momma call its 185 bucks ..buang duitt mak aku jer ..i think im still going fer tha 150 bucks one ..standard ..no more higher than that ..and i think i've made my mind , still going fer soft rebonding ..sorry girlfriends ..if curl , i verrrryyy lazzyyyy want to manage ..and i think curl make people face look mature ..but every now and then if im sick of straight hair and then i'll do temp curls ..
and guess whattt i even google how to flatten big stomach ..haha ..and youtube-ing how to make pony tails not look boring and 2mins cute hair style ...hahaha ! nothing to do laaahh ..
and isya told me that i look lyke i lose some weight ..ahahah malu i ..hahah ..see only when im stress only i gained alot alot of weight ..i love to eat but now im controlling tha food i consume ..but im still angry with my lil bro fer finishing up tha ice-cream tub that i bought ..mentang2 i want to diet ..annoying taaauu ! hahahh

"nampak bulan tuh , tengok lawa eyh " ..
i still rmbr this ..and everytyme when i look at tha sky and theres no moon ..is that tha reason fer ya absence ? ..
i say this alot of times and i gonna say it again i miss you calling me late at night ..i miss hearing your laughters ..and i melt each tyme you call my name ..actually i melt most of tha tyme when i hear your voice especially when you sing me to sleep ..wheres late night msg ..when i on my hp and your name appear but by then when you texted me you know im soundly asleep ..and ohh good morning msg that brighten up my dayy evnthough his morning is lyke my lunch tyme ..hehe .. yesterdae i got tha courage to text hym ferst , andd i thought hes not gonna reply but he did ..and i was smilinggg ..its a relief when you say you'll never 4get me and im still there , in your heart ..even if its only 2 text msg , im happy to hear from you ..well , when i dont care fer tha person , i really really dont care i'll just ignore but when i really really care fer tha person , i'll treat them lyke tha brightest star ..i can even wait all day long fer tha person to call/text/meet ..and at this moment i still miss 1.80 guy and its hym that i care tha most ..asal kau irritating tapi kau sweet ahh dumb dumb ..aku macam orang bodoh almost every post is about you you you ..

2010-02-04T00:26:00.001-08:00

haaalllooo ..im singing and dancing with kak wani now ..hahahaha ! hypeerrrrrr gilerrrr ! kak wani giler nak mampos ..hahaha ..kidding ..make me laugh sampai nak mampos ..
shes at my place now ..dah lamerrr tk jumpeeeee ...so , exciteddd skejapp ..
shes irritated with someone and tha way she express her anger ..so funneeeyy ..
"sekali i swingg dier nye muke"..hahaha !
anyways , my momma gimme false hope lah ..she say her place got 1 more vacancy then tk jadi ..fareeha , tk jadi uh ..tk leh temankan kau :( but my momma workplace fer part-time , tha salary quite highh seyhh ..so sayang no vacancy ..1 month $1000 ++ maner mahu dapat ..so nana and kak wani this mondayy shop till drop okaaay ! (: going out with tha kakak2 ..
what elseee eyhh ..ohh and i saw someonee yesterdae ..
hes quite frenly now ..and we're in good terms ..dulu gado-gado ..i know my fault , my perangai abit mcm sial dulu ..regret ahh ..hes a nycee guy ..
hes charmingg ..i kept staring at his eyes ..and then when i went back home ..beepppp ..his name appear ..i got excited when he text me ..huahuahua
ex-admirer lah eyh naz ..ingat tak zaman secondary school , sec 2 dulu ..suke laki samerr ..
am having stomach cramps nowww ..erghhh ..bad mooddddd=.=

letting go is forgetting what was never yours ..

2010-01-31T16:42:00.000-08:00

jux woke up ..today monday ..ferssst of febbb ..no plans fer today ..going cycling with tha girls 2mrw ..
this weekend , went out with tha family to tamp to get my younger brother a pair of shoes ..
walked in to uniQLo ..my intention was jux to look around but then my dear cousin was working and she psychoed me until i bought tha jeans ..whatthe ..hahah ...one thang i dont lyke about gg shopping is that whenever tha salesgirl start to psycho me , i'll definitely buy tha thing ..hahahah !but nehmind lah , no regrets , furthermore ..i need another jeans ..straight cut one and i love tha material ..so cooling ..anddd lastly , got a 30% staff discount ..thanks cuzzin ! (:
then had dinner at ljs ..seated next to this couple ..and tha guy with piercing with tha chinese/white look remind me of 1.80 guy ..so saddd :/
i accidentally looked at them when they were holding each other hands ..and when tha guy caught me looking , they quickly let go of each other hands ..hahahah ! ..oppps ..kacau daun betol lah aku niee ..but i cant help it to take a glance whenever hes not looking ..i miss 1.80 guy ..
i jux dont lyke tha fact when he 'dissapear' and then walked in my lyfe and tell me how much he miss me and then 'dissapear' again ..so its lyke come and go as and when he feel lyke it ..
buttt i nn...eee...ddd..hym ..
i jux feel that hes rare ..he know how to appreciate and respect me ..and thats tha reason why i choose hym out of other guys to be close to ..ya ya he may look lyke _____ ..we're living in two diff worlds ..but we 'click' each tyme ..and he even ask me if i want hym to take out his piercings if we're going out ..
enough of that , maybe now we're not contacting ..i know hes busy busy busy ..i jux feel lyke going to his school ..and wait fer hym outside ..ohhhmmyy i think im going crazeeyy ..
waiting fer a few more months and im gonna give me a surprise call fer his burdae ..
everytyme when i look at my phone , im waiting fer his name to appear ..
anyways , going shooppingg with nana next week after she get her pay ..hhaha ..kakak2 dah keje , must blanje =p ..
had family gathering yesterdae ..mother side ..happy uh ..my big family seem to be more united now ..we're discussing what to bring fer chalet and stuffs ..ohhhh and i cant freaking make it fer fifa's chalet mann on tha 14 march ..my cousin getting engage ..why are all tha kakak/abg sedare getting engaged/married ..then later i alone with tha little kids ..i also want to kahwin ahh ..hahahaha ! kiddingggg ..
and i dunnoe why my aunty kept asking me to become a teacher ..hhaha
i look at my course career opportunities and theres science educators ..
study hard fer 3 years ..get a diploma ..then go to NIE and become a sci teacher fer pri school level ..or if im eligible fer uni ..then i shall proceed ..or i work at lab/clinic/hosp ferst ..get money and take private uni ..to have a taste of uni has been my dream yaa knoww ..so plan in 3 years tyme ..insya allah ..kalau diizinkan tuhan ..amin ..(:
and i got alot of suggestions from people about how to get to woodlands ..haahah !
so its either bus-bus(pasir ris to tamp then woodlands)/(pasir ris to sengkang then woodlands) or bus-mrt ..i feel lyke shifting house to woodlands ahh ..hahahah ! so leceehh ..which one faster ? o.o why from pasir ris no straight bus eyh ..tampines have bedok have sengkang have ..aiyerrrr ..
my momma have a facebook account now ..aiyerrr ..hahaha

kaaay byeee ! thinking what to do todayyy ..bo-ringgg ..take care sweets

2010-01-27T01:47:00.001-08:00

tengok semangat kann ..plaster-ing my fren's sandal ..kawan misali ..hahah !

heys heys heys ..
i think some of you might be stopping by my blog to know which poly im posted to right ..what course and stuffs ..hahah ..orayte ..i'll be in ...........republic poly ..biotechnology ! ..hahah ..i get tha course that i really want ..syukur ..luckily fareeha msg-ed me , if not i'll be sleeping awayyyy ..momma was a happy gobber ..she really want me to be in biomedical or biotechnology ..and lyke what i say , always momma choice theres berkat and most probably you'll get tha choice ..
im ssoooo happy to see her happpyy ..furthermore , im much closer to her now ..sharing almost everything ..since i've been a good girl lately , staying out of trouble ..even when my brother shouted at me ..she'll be lyke "eyh jgn kurang ajar ngan kakak eyh ..dier tk pernah kurang ajar ngan kau" ..hahahah ..besttt nyeee kene pampered ..hahah !
anyways , before i got tha results i had a dream that i got media and i was pissed off ..hahahah ! called fareeha straight awayy ..
me : aku dah dpt results
fareeha : 1..2..3..
fareeha and me : REPUBLICCCC ..
hahahhaha ! kecohh skejapp ..
baekkkkkk perrr ..fareeha and naz will be joining me in RP except they will be in different course lah fer sure ..gereeeeeeeekkkkk nyeeeeee ..
i love i love i loveeee itttt ..
hafifah got in to TP ..but nehmind , biler2 blh meet perrr ..
i think one day i want to try to take tha bus to woodlands ..i scared later i blurr2 laahh ..so at last im out of tha east area , exploring tha north side of singapore ..
biler nak start sekolahh niee , tk sbr nak blajaaaaa ..hahahah ..kaayy hak-duish ..mcm phmm ..
lastly went out with tha ladies ..naz , fareeha and fifa ..went to watch toothfairy @plaza sing ..bukan toothpick eyhhh ..i know tersasul ..naz sukeee ! ..grrrrrr ..ketok kepale kauuuuu ..
i love tha movie ..funney ..im a big fan of comedy movies ..hahah ..
then walked to lucky plaza fer lunch , nasi ayam penyet ..i dont really lyke nasi ayam penyet actually ..why ?..because i will put tha chilli one side ..too spicy fer me lerr ..
hahhha ..but okaay lahh ..im sick of fast food ..
then we walked walked ..and guess whattt ..FAREEHA SANDAL CAME OUT ..
hahhah ..she was complaining2 ..anndd she tripped on something ..and went lyke "ah kan , aku nye sandal tercabut"..
naz , fifa and i were laughing all tha wayy ..busted eyhh ..but then funeeeyyy lehhh ..in tha middle of orchard road ..what you expect ..hahahah !
i helped her out to paste PLASTERS on tha sandal and it lasted fer only few seconds ..being tha most CARING-est fren ..hahaha ! fifa and i run to cotton on fer a while and jux grabbed one shoe fer her ..guess what ..size 37 she cant fit in ..so run to cotton on again , this tyme with naz ..to change tha size ..pasieeyy ..hehh ..
then after tha huhuhuhahaha ..after we're done ..fareeha was back to normal , hyper back ..if not her face lyke want to cry ..mintak kene tumbuk nye muke ..hahaha ! train-ed to bugis ..naz and fifa bought something fer themselves ..andd off homee ..tiredd buttt ENTERTAINING OUTING ..thanks to fareeha .. naz tak jadi sleep over cause she have to take care of her anakk ..hahhha ..sedihhhhhh
and talking about fareeha , my cousin is interested with her ..hahahhah
not bad not bad ..sibok jer cousin2 aku , satu2 kawan aku nak amekk ..haiyaa ..
going cycling next tuesday ..(:
andd ohhh i dunnoe why suddenly i miss my childhood frens ..mamat and isz ..
i dunnoe where they are now , what they are doing ..andd im wishing that they get into tha same poly as me ..hahaha ..asked my parents , they also dunnoe ..
ohh , suppose to cook today but i lazeeeyy ..hehhh

prohibited lovee /// $1.80 guyyy ..whenever i miss you , i'll prevent/deny it ..

2010-01-24T17:05:00.000-08:00

kaaay , im updating ..naz ! baca ! ..hahaha ..
today i was supposed to accompany nana fer facial but last min thang pop out ..soorrryyy nana ..feel badd seyhh :( tk perrr2 , nanti one day kte kluaaa ..
anyways , i want to share something funney ..
so , i received a call from someone i dunnoe ..
hym : hello , nie nadhirah kan ..
me : a'ah ..nie saper eyh ..
hym : knl ___tak ..(dont want to write his name can ?) ..heeh
me : tak uh ..
hym : because your name and number is in my contact list but i cant recall who you are ..thats weird ..
me : ouhh okaay ..
hym : tinggal aner
me : pasir ris
hym : umor brape
me : 19 (HAHA ! kaay , this part you can laugh)
hym : ouhh ..sekola aner dulu ..
andd guess what , i hang up ..perangai babi ..hahaha ..because i thought its a stupidd PRANk ..paiseyy skejapp ..i almost call some of my guyfrens and going lyke "hah , funney ..nycee prank " ..but naseb tak ..if not , more more paiseyy ..but its lyke weird , i mean lyke he only check his contact list nowww ? ..whattthee ..
he texted me politely , and i think im abit rude ..then after that my instinct tell me that maybe hes my long lost fren ? ..but thennn after viewing his facebook ..i still dunnoe who he is ..saperrr siaaaa kauuu ?! hahahh ..i cant rmbr ! i cant rmbr ! ahhhh ..
2mrw , insya allah if theres nothing ..i'll be catching a movie with tha girls ..and naz sleeping overrrrr ...bestttttt ..
then wednesday get to know which poly im posted to ..
orayte , what elseee ..i think thats all ..i dunnoe what to blog about lah this few days ..
kaaay , buhbyee ..take care lah kayy ? (:

2010-01-21T21:02:00.000-08:00

okaaay , im home alone again ..so today is friday ..plan was to go swimming ..then rashes here and there ..so tak tercapai ..hahaha ..but anyways , im recovering ..tha rashes all gonee ..hahaha ! ..happy happy ..but tha thang is if i want to go out next week ..howw ? ..friends schooling/working ..then i rot at home ? ..=.=
naz sleeping over next tuesday ..yeayyy ! ..looking forward ..
andd can we please forward tyme ..i want wednesday to come faster ..im jux super curious to know what course and what poly im going to ..so at least i can goggle tha poly's website ..and lyke see what tha course i get is all about ..hahahh ..boring ya knoww ..when i see people working schooling ..andd i dont know what to do ..
yesterdae fareeha and i had a good laugh ..we were busy commenting on people's pictures ..
and then she was so kecoh because no one accompany her fer job interview yesterdae ..and she went lyke "kau tahu tak , aku lost sia ..aku confused dah sampai saner ..dah lah aku bukak pintu dier tk leh bukak ..paiseyy ..aku tk bace rupernye kene press doorbell(funney) " ..and she went on and on ..hahaha ! kecohh perr ..
ohh , and one more thang i've been bloghopping and read from i-dont-know-where ..they say if a guy call you in tha middle of night means something ? cause if he really treat you as a friend theres always tha next day .. i dunnoe but i feel lyke ..hmmm ..i dont think so ? ..or reallly uhhhhh ? (: ..hahaha !

2010-01-18T16:38:00.001-08:00

woke up at 7.30 am today ..i was sleeping and i felt someone stroking my hair ..woke up and there go my momma ..hhahah ! so today i got to see her going off to work , send her till tha doorstep , if not im happily snoring awayy ..hahah ..she was worried all tha tyme cause guess whatt ..i got rashes ! all over my body ..both of my hands , legs , neck and now going to my face ..itchy itchy ..
went to tha doctor , andd thats allergic ..got an injection ..after 16 years of living , i never been allergic to anything ..ferst tyme ..must be something i eat or touch ..think back and ohh in tha afternoon , trying to be helpful ..i helped dad with his fishtank ..marine fish one ..so means tha water is salty ..and i dunnoe after washing my hands ..after that i started to scratch here scratch there ..sedihhhh ..all red red ..
complained to bestie , nana and naz ..hahah ! ..not sure if tha girls are coming over or not todayy .. and im still thinking friday howw ..tha swimming plan ..im having rashes all over my body and i dont think gg swimming is a good idea ..alahhhh ..how how ? ..
breakfast(done)
medicine(done)
i think im gg to sleep again ..tha pills make me feels sleepyyyy ..
anyways , i dunnoe why i lyke to read my previous post over and over again ..
heheh ..andd frens guessed it correctly that im refering to hym ..how you all know ahh ?..obvious mehh ? ..uhm , wished he read my blog and at least know that i caree ..
i blew tha chance awayy ..bodohh bodohh .. i think i'll wait ..

2010-01-17T01:11:00.001-08:00

i still rmbr tha times when we ferst got to know each other , when we ferst kenal-kenal ..
i still rmbr how i used to ignore you , and you never gave up .. those times ..and when i gave you a surprise call , you sound so excited and out of words ..sometimes i do smile and laugh by myself ..how you used to 'critisize' other guys when im asking fer ya opinion , jux to make yourself look better in my eyes ..when you went lyke "actually i pon baek perr , dont judge a book by its cover" ..but then now ..where you ? ..i know i never admit it but actually i do miss you alottt ..please please dont leave me ..please please turn around ..please please dont forget me ..i miss late night calls i miss late night msgs ..i miss you cracking jokes , i miss us 'debating' ..i miss you sharing your future with me ..i miss your presence , when i jux had a broke up ..you were there worrying fer me especially when im crying alone ..i miss every single thing .. i want you to repeat this "i never known a girl selamer i know you" ..you can ask me from A-Z , i rmbr everything ..eventhough sometimes , i pretend that i cant rmbr a thing you say ..i wished i haven been clearing my inbox , so that i can read yr msgs over and over again ..i dont know why only now i started to feel that you leave prints in my heart eventhough you're not tha type that i've been looking for but i can see that you are changing ..andd ohh pleasee dont make me fall fer you , you're changing to tha person that i always wanted ..

aku umpama merpati putih , patah sayapnya di udara ..

2010-01-15T04:20:00.000-08:00

i miss doing this ..hahah !

Greetings !
jux had breakfast , nasi lemak ..
went karaoke yesterdae with tha girls ..funnn gilerr ..at lastt theres room vacancy , dier nak kak wani kol jugakk laahh ..hahah ! ..we only have to pay 6 bucks ..cheap right ..hahah ..not many know tha place ..ohh , before i 4get theres this pakcik went to fareeha and went lyke "alalala sweet nyee" ..hahahah ! andd guess wad he jux came back from masjid okaay ..letme repeat masjiddd ..hahahah ..mampos ..
we laughed , sing our heart outt ..dah sing pas tuh ketawe dah sing pas tuh ketawe ..asyik gitu jer .. ..hahah ..2 hours not enough .. from jiwang song to english happy song then to dangdut ..mampos ..hahah ! theres video taken , not gg to post it here ..later fareeha cekik me ..ohh and tha caramel coffee ice blend is nyceee ..hahah ..go there again okaay ..around feb or march ? ..(:
then kak wani kol , want to meet ..salam-ed , hug-ed her ..miss you laaahh ! rmbt u pendek also , still sweet ..no worries .. then meet up with naz at tamp macDonald ..si mentel dtg jer , kecohh ..we talked about alot of stuffs ..and laughed laughed ..mostly about our secondary lyfee ..
then fifa went home ferst ..still early , still 7 pm , so asked naz to go to pasir ris to join us fer a while ..go whitesands ..then tha girls want to lepak
me : nak lepak kat maner ?
fareeha :kat town park
me :eyh maghrib2 , tak bgs duduk2 kat park*innocent face*
both of them started to laugh at me ..hahaha ..take a stroll there ..
reached home at around 8 plus ..andd i was alrdy so sleepy ..
next outing will be picnic at sentosa or swimming ..and then naz will be sleeping over my hse again ..gicchee2 ya ya yeahh ..fifa pon eyhhh ! ..hahah ..anyways , i'll be gg to JB and i cant amke it fer isya's burdae partay :(

pujaan hati , ku ingin kau menjadi miliku , lengkapi jalan cerita hidupku<3

2010-01-12T00:34:00.001-08:00

oraytoe , i've made my decision , i hope i've choose tha right path especially with approval and support from both parents ..insya allah ..im choosing RP , but thats will be my last few choices ..
so briefly tha course that i want will be biomedical , biotechnology , pharmaceutical ..and some gerontological studies and business applications and business information system ..and some others ..lazy to list down ..
called mendaki today to ask fer advice ..'counselling' skejap ..hahah !
tha person : yes , what can i help ?
blablahblah
me : is RP good ? i heard from people that poly mcm tk bgs ..
tha person : kaay namer u saper ?
me : nadhirah
tha person : u jgn fikir gitu lah , all singapore poly is good , at tha end of tha day u are still a diploma holder ..important is tha course that you take is something you're interested in ..
RP is jux new , not established lyke other poly which have been there fer many many years ..and jux becoz of that people ckp tak bgs ..u jgn dgr aper org ckp ..
me : ouhhh , terima kasih eyhh
tha person : kaay , all tha best nadhirah
theres some others that she share with me but i think i dont want to put it up here cause actually every course is good ..up to individual ..i dont want to anyhow say this course got future , this course no future ..so yahh ..
feel kinda better after talking to tha mendaki lady ..heheh
my dad went lyke "ahh kan betol aper aku ckp , dah puas dah" ..hahhah !
my dad promised to treat me movie ..yeayy ..hehe ..im going to puasa nazar 2mrw ..

i feel so proud of youu ..i know deep inside of you , you always wanted to be a good person ...
from last tyme , you never failed to amaze me ..i see you trying hard ..

2010-01-11T16:51:00.000-08:00

2010-01-11T16:28:00.000-08:00

hello !
orayte , got my results yesterdae ..before getting tha results i was alrdy in tears ..
and i see wrongly , i thought i failed my maths ..so i was alrdy crying ..and then fifa went lyke "eyh a-maths kau yng kau fail lah , maths kau pass" ..
hhahaah , kaay ..false alarm sekejap ..
i was shocked when i passed my pure science ..i NEVER pass them in my entire sec4 lyfe ..
call my momma and i was alrdy crying lyke a baby ..naz was beside me , talking to her momma and she was also crying ..some sec 3 student were looking at us with pity look ..i think they thought we flunk our Os ..heh ..
so alhamdulilah , i pass eng , maths , sci ..tha major subjs ..alhamdulilah my girls ..fareeha , naz and fifa make it ! im happy that all of us make it through ..haha ..we were crying and hugging yesterdae ..hahahh !
eligible fer MI or poly ..but im going to take poly ..3 years in MI to take a-lvl to me is kinda a waste tyme i mean i dont think i'll be serious and focusing ..i have a lot of choices fer tha poly course since i make it fer tha entry requirements but tha COP cannot ahh ..should i appeal ? ..i dont think so ah ..and most probably i'll be going to republic poly ..ohh ya people i know you all we will be lyke RP = rejeted poly ..oh come on please be nycee ..i dont wanna go to tha other poly and get something i dont lyke ..engineering ..and nursing , my momma dont let me take ..so i follow what she say ..last night was only me and her choosing what course ..i believe whatever path my momma choose fer me theres berkat ..momma knows tha best ..
so pasir ris to woodlands eyhh ..hahha ..but nehmind lah dont mind travelling from east to west ..haha , nana *winkwink* inside story , ader chance ..hehe (:
fareeha will be joining me too ..hahah ! ..
anyway , thank you eyh people tha one who have been texting/calling me to wish me all tha best and thanks fer tha care and concern ..
aunties and cousins kept ringing my house fone ..heheh ..
orayte , going swimming maybe this wed ? ..
take careee ;)
anyways , today tha 12 jan ! HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY MAISYARAH ! lovee yaa ! miss yaa ! mwah mwah !

2010-01-10T00:13:00.000-08:00

haahha , kaay muke perangai ..

sorry only now i update about this since i've been busy ..
8 jan which is on tha friday went to poly open house with fifa and fareeha ..went to TP ferst then NP and NYP ..i was half-dead otw to clementi ..tireddd ..haha
i think TP was fun ..hhaha ..we laughed alot ..i think we were tha ferst few ..so tha student leaders really welcome us ..andd they were clapping2 shouting welcome2 ..hahah ..and theres this chinese guy , was blushing lyke a pumpkin when he was talking to us ..
hym : so this is tha retail course*blushing
his fren :eyh why your face so red ah ..
then we started to laugh at hym ..fareeha was alrdy giggling so i cant help it but to laugh out loud ..hahah !
hym : i dunnoe what to say alrdy laah ..*point middle finger to his fren
hahaha ! funney ..but that course quite interesting ..
then we had our LATe lunch at 4 pm okaay ! grrr was so hungry and we cmpain alot alot since we have to stand in tha MRt from tamp all tha way to clementi ..mcm *teeettoo* btol lahh ..
reached there went to see tha sciences course only cause i think tha rest we alrdy ask at TP ..
then at night went to NYP ..
blablahblah ..
then was so tired call my dad , and he dont want to pick me up
me : take me can ..penat ahh
dad : kat aner ?
me : ang mo kio
dad : tak nak ah , jauh ..penat , penat kan sekali ah ..
hukhuk :/ ..
and then we have a hard tyme finding bus 88 to pasir ris ..hahah ..
fareeha and fifa : maner nie nadd ..
nad : kejap lah , i noe theres 88 but biler at night i cant recognise tha place ..krg pnat , aku pon darling ..
hahahah ! acting mesti mau lebih ..
so enough of that , i think i got a few courses that i want alrdy in my head , i love to interact with people ..i want my future job to be something that i can help people and then at tha end of tha day wanna see their smile ..my momma want me to go NIE after Os which im still considering ..scared my results not good ..
anw , talked to someone yesterdae and i jux feel hym weird ..he haven been so idk how to say ..
he wasnt that serious and idk what hes trying to tell me ..he never been so concern about who im talking to and stuff lyke that ..he changed alot in his appearance but its okaay i still feel tha soft side of hym lyke how he treat me last tyme ..maybe one day i shall wait fer hym outside his school ..
i miss hym alot , and im not falling fer hym but i care so much fer hym and i need hym ..
i dont think he read my blog so i dont feel insecure when i type this out ..heheh ..
talked to tha girls ..nana , talked to you soon again kaay ..
then cnference with fareeha and fifa anddd hahah ..fifa was sleppy ferst ..meeting tha girls today fer our results ! im stil not nervous .. i think i expect what i gonna get alrdy
anyway to naz stay strong ..semoga rohnya dicucuri tuhan ..

2010-01-06T17:39:00.000-08:00

wuah , tha weather this morning is cooling ..i lykeee :D
and guess wad im still sickk ..gg to tha doctor soon ..
went out yesterdae ..fareeha waited fer me under my block then to central to give danial some books and waited fer fifa ...we went to sengkang ferst , compass point ..we were supposed to change bus after taking 81 ..and bus 89 took a long tyme ..actually not really ..we missed tha bus ! ..tha bus driver didnt realised that we were gonna take tha bus cause we were busy talking and were about to stand ..and there you go ..bye-bye to tha bus ..since 15 more mins to 1 pm , fareeha gonna be late fer her interview ..we decided to take cab ..and this one more thang , most of tha cab were hired ..and i dunnoe why we kept on laughing after fareeha hail taxi by taxi and it didnt stopped ..you know tha feeling of rejection and paiseeyy-ness ..hahaha ! so at last my turn to do it , hail a taxi and it stop ! haha ! miracle ..good things happen to good people lah fareeha ..tengok aku dgn penuh kesabaran ..haha ..kayy ..MP = macam phm ..
reached on tyme , find nana @ metro since nana recommend tha job ..and fareeha got tha job ..but she'll be working when tha supervisor call except fer march izzit ? ..when they need alot of people ..so nana , jaga her eyh ..hahah !
had lunch at banquet , had fishball noodles ..i need soupp ..sickk mahh ..hahah
then off to plaza sing , watched alvin and tha chipmunks 2 ..i love tha FAT chipmunk , tha small-small one ..cuteey ..hahah ! i was noisy keep sneezing ..aahhhh ...irrriitaattingg ..
walked aroundd ..then to 313 @ somerset ..sadly , i didnt shop since my parents want me to save up ferst ..sakit kan hati when you're eyeing on alot of stuffs but you jux have to say bye-bye when you look at it ..grrr ! met farah aqilah ! ..salam-ed hugg her ! ..so long nvr see herr ..if u're reading my blog , lyke u say u read my blog during christmas eve but then didnt saw me ..pasal bnyk orgg ..cant breathe * do tha actions* ..hahaha ! .. anyway , i miss youuuuu ! ..hahah (:
see ya soon ..
then went to tampines to have dinner ..this tyme i feel lyke eating fast food so KFC ..
saw a few familiar faces ..hahahah ! naz , if u're reading , i saw tha NCDCC guy ..hahahah! small world ..
reached home , my head spinning ..had a good rest and gg doc soon ..cant take it ahh ..
anyway , yesterdae fareeha received a text msg : O-LEVEL RESULTS 11 JAN AT 2PM ! ..
hahah ! so fasssssttt lehhhh ..fareeha kept telling me that shes scared scared scared ..im scared too lahh but not really ..i think i expect what im gonna get alrdy , i dont expect much as long as i can get a place in poly ..alhamdulilah alrdy ..and i dont feel lyke taking my results ..ask my mum to take fer me can or not ah ? ..i dont wanna feel tha tense ..orayte , pray fer me ..n-e-r-v-o-u-s
ohh ,and today plan to go karaoke with some girls and guys friends ..i cant make it ..sorry sorry ..have fun!

2010-01-04T01:21:00.000-08:00

" you think i scared izzit fareeha your eyes big !" ..hahah !

new chance , new beginning , BRAND NEW YEAR !
2010 has finally came ..
hah , i think this will be my ferst post fer 2010 ..(:
so how should i start ? ..
2010 didnt start really well cause im sickkk ! ..my throat hurts ..been coughing2 ..
but hey ! if you're sick during tha beginning of tha year means you will have a great year ahead ..seriouslllllyyyy ..hahahh ..slap yourself if you believe me ..
and i actually broke kaay broke tha necklace my momma bought it fer me ..she was quite upset actually ..but then i think shes okaay since she bought me tank top plus gg to accompany me to do my hair soon ..anyone who can help me fix it , i will love tha person forever ..hahahhh !
so new year resolution to be more responsible and more independent ..my parents kept repeating this to me ..
jux came back from white sands , jux feel weird when people wearing school uniform jux came back from school ..fyi , i miss schooling ! haha ..i miss canteen food ..hahah ..and me ? ..taking a stroll in tha mall ..hhaa ..went to accompany fareeha to job interview despite being sickk ..sweet kann ..i knoww i knoww dont have to say =p she also very nycee buy me somethang during her hols ..only me ..hahaha ! kaay hak-tui btol dhirahh ..
but then when we reached at iora , tha person say they want china girl ..haiyaaa ..so she apply at watsons ..i was supposed to apply with her but then i dont feel lyke working ..hehehe ..
then went to KFC buy fer my younger bro somethang ..eventhough i punch kick hym often i love hym alooot ..hahaha ..one and only sibling whuaatt (:
went to tha library also ..hahah ..kaay me gg to lib ? ..fareeha show me that face ..haha ..i read up about somethang ..girls , dont expect tha guy to call you often ..dont get pissed off if they dont call ..jux cut that out ..(:
so , i have a few plans this week ..
wednesday : gg karaoke or movie but can we jux watch movie girls ? ..im having sore throat ..i cant sing ..later pekak kang then you knoww ..botanical garden ..then 313 @ somerset , see tell ya alrdy i'll be gg AGAIN this tyme to shop shop shop (:
friday : gg poly open house ..will be gg to SP , NP and TP ..(:
ohh , i've been gg to wedding invitation this few weekends ..andd i dont know that i have a huge family tree ..some of my anuties/uncles living in tha west ..jurong people ..so not really closee ..but then i jux love being around them ..funney and sporting ..can you imagine aunties gelek2 ..hahaha ! ferst look , they seem abit arrogant ..second look , they'll be smiling/hugging you alrdy ..they were very united also all tha family members wore same colour ..next wedding invitation i'll be wearing same colour as them i think ..hahah ..and tha last wedding i went to was suppperrr granddd ..tha jurong people ..they hire this long car ..what is it call ? is it lambo something ? ..1 hour = 300 bucks ..mampos .. i want i want fer my wedding ! hhaha !
and tha bride and groom were being carried ..nyceee ..
i'll upload some videos soon ..and theres one video my kak sedare singing a hindustani song and everyone went silent and stone ..hahahah ! (:

2009-12-30T00:12:00.000-08:00

i dont want to update my blog but i need to ..ferst to kill tyme cause im bored lyke babi goreng ..
check my facebook ..and makk classic perr ..i got only 1 photo ..and i wanted to upload but lyke lazy lyke tht ..and when im feeling this way , i feel lyke deleting it awayy but no lah , i wont ..hahah ..tangan gatal btol ..lazy to be active in tha cyberworld ..
people who look good in photo sometimes dont look good outside eh ? ..hahahh ..random ..
read newspaper about people doubting sezairi being tha idol ..haiiyaa ..
chatting wit this becok chick ..nazihah ..hahah ..
i seriously dunnoe what to do ..shld go out today ..
watched teevee from juz now ..and i think penjaga hati and spaQ @ sensasi is interesting ..im still finding tha theme song fer penjaga hati ..

"nothing you love is lost, not really.things, people they always go away sooner or later.you cant hold them anymore lyke you hold moonlight.the only things you really have are the one you hold inside your heart" ..

why am i always scared of everything ..once i feel its never meant to be ..i'll always run away from it ..its better if i jux go MIA ..i cant wait fer 2010 , i think i say this alot of tyme ..but seriously i cant wait to start a new chapter of my lyfe on a fresh page ..

kaay , i wanna have ice-cream ..i dunnoe why i feel so stressed up ..i need something to make me happy and relax = ice -cream ..

2009-12-28T17:17:00.000-08:00

was talking to nana otf last night and my fone went *teetteetnoteet* ..battery flat ..babi goreng betol ..
she was asking me a question and i was so semangat alrdy to answer and there you go ..haha ..
sorry lah babe ..(:
so bestie text me yesterdae and he'll be in ITE Macpherson .. actually i want hym to be in simei ..but nehmind lorr ..
wuah , next year everybody are getting busy ..friends going sec 5 , ITE , poly , having attachments ..haaii , can i jux stop tyme now , see see people are growing up ..thats why i say i dont want to grow up ..gee :D
how i wish aft getting my results i can stop schooling fer a while ..hehs ..but no lahh ..
ohh , and ignore tha previous post ..im always lyke that ..i get upset easily over small thangs , i can be tha crying baby most of tha tyme ..but aft that i can get over it ..everyone has their weakness right ? ..dont worry lah naz and fifa darlings kaay (:
in a few more days , HELLO 2010 ..(:
fer countdown , i wanna see fireworks ..hehs ..
in march , i'll be having family chalet/BBQ ..yeay2 ! ..celebrating march babies burdae as well ..
i heard from my aunties that they want to have a huge cake ..and theres lucky draw also ..hahahah !
im looking forward to it , i guess it'll be a great tyme together ..:D
today i think im not going out again ..yesterdae accompany my grandmomma to tha supermarket ..and she always treat me ..how nycee kan ..and shes also very funney ..
grandmum : eyh org tuh senyum asl kau tak senyum balek
me : ouh , tak nmpk pon ..tk perasan
grandmum : kau nie eyh mmg smbong nak mampos ..mentang2 dier bdak macdonald ..kau tak pandang ah ..then *walk towards my dad and cmplain*
hahahaha ! sumpah tak bersalah ah ..hahah !
grandmum : eyh tengok aper kat hidung ..
me : eyh jerawat ! nenek adr matae eyh
grandmum : a'ah lah ..selalu g arab st abeh adr org arab tuh selalu bgi minyak wangi free ..
=.= ..hahah ! can get that kind of nenek or not ? ..lol ! from bad mood can start smiling alrdy ..haha (:

2009-12-27T17:28:00.000-08:00

so sezairi is tha singapore idol ..haha!

momma , dad and i voted fer hym lyke 5-6 times ..actually i prefer sylvia but somehow i have this feeling that sezairi gonna win ..

ohh , and i need someone to talk to right now eventhough its gonna be crappy or wadever ..i jux need someone to listen to me :/

wheres bestfriend ? i need hym :/ i dont want to disturb my girlfriends ..

note to self : im thankful that my prayers has been answered ..i see tha light ..and tha feeling is fading ..thank you *fake smile

2009-12-25T22:05:00.000-08:00

heys ! hello everybody ..
so far my week has been greaat ..
went out with tha family during tha christmas eve ..asked my dad to drive me to 313 @ somerset ..andd amek kau , was so packed ..i cant even breathe ..heheh ..
walking lyke sardines ..but i love it love it ..forever 21 , 4 storey ..super big ..then uniQLo then cotton on ..wuahh , all my fav ..dad gave me money to shop but suddenly i dont have tha mood since it was super super pack , difficult fer me to choose tha thangs that i lyke ..
dad asked me to go there again with frens ..jom jom girls ..shopping nak ? (:
and one good thang was tha building was jux opposite my dad's office ..so he told me that after i finish my shopping can jux call hym to pick me up ..hahaha ..best kan best kan ? ..(:
and theres candy empire coming out soon right below my dad's office also ..abes abes , everyday if my dad gonna buy me chocos since i love them ..im gonna gain weighttt ..hehh ..
andddddd guess waddd ..i was walkinggg and guess who i bumped into ..isya baby !! ..hahahh ! ..was so happy to see her ..hugg herr ! (: ..isya u're getting prettier ! ..people wont say our face look alike anymore lah ..u bertambah lawa laaahh (:
then went to penin ..long tyme didnt went there , tha last tyme i go there was lyke last year ? ..haha ! then went to arab st to have murtabak ..yum yum ..then went to mustafa centre ..and my dad was superrr happy after he got a pair of shoes fer 200 bucks ..and its my momma treat ..my momma OKB ..hahah ! no wonder everyday smile smile ..she bought me a necklace also ..as a return , i accompany her to get her work mates christmas prezzie ..hahah ! ..
i wanted to go to expo actually ..i heard theres taufik and hady but then lazzyy uh ..lazy nak jadi mcm sardines lagi ..cnferm pack ..
ohhh , and i wanna go night safari ..someone take me out ..hheehh ,,
going out with my 4e1 classmates next wed , insya allah ..but i not sure where we will be heading to ..
cant wait fer fareeha to be back from her hols ..i hope she'll be okaay , shes really in need of someone to hear her outt ..and her patience somehow amaze me ..lyke theres no limit ..garuk kepala siol ..hahah !

sayonara ! (:

jauh di mata , dekat di hati <3

2009-12-21T00:50:00.000-08:00

"Dengan itu,kita harus bersabar menanti kehadiran cinta sejati.Mungkin ia ada di depanmu hanya Tuhan sahaja belum menunjukkannya kepadamu."

taken from fareeha's blog .. i have to agree with her words ..continue writing okaay (:

wednesday outing which is to go swimming have to be postpone due to something something ..hahaha ! ..
so fifa planned to go to botanical garden instead ..thought of going jurong bird park , theres new attractions right ..but then we lazy to travel all tha way there ..kalo naek kereta boleh eyh fifa ..haha ! pampered betol ..
so now im totally bored ..log in to my msn and i hate to recall thangs especially when its 2-3 years ago ..i mean it sucks when people know everything about you ..and then you can only say "eyh ?really ? how you know ..i cant rmbr .."
hahahah ! ..how come i cant rmbr a thing eyh ..Short term memory ahh ..
ohhh , and i think i dont need a cellphone anymore lahh ..its been lyke four days alrdy ..i haven been msging or calling , and i can go out happily w/o bringing my phone ya knoww ..ohh well i jux need my house fone ..and i think friends also automatically call my hse fone instead of my cellphone ..so i dont need handphone ..hahah ! mcm phm ..
kaay , i think im going fer interview fer watsons with fareeha ..hahah ! i dunnoe why i feel lyke laughing ..haha , only now then i start searching fer work ..
ohhh, and my facebook account will be ready soon ..so add me if you want okaay ..omgg , again .. only now i start making one ..hahahah ..*giggles* but most probably i'll be privating it and i'll be choosing my frens ..nana told me something that make me scaredd ..hahaha !
uhhhhm , what elsee ..im happy this week because at last my momma will be around ..sad ya knoww she has to work everyday including sat and sun ..but she got her bonus alrdy , no wonder she smile only whenever i asked her to get me something ..yeayy ! shoooppiingggg ..
going out with my family this christmas to i dunnoe where at least got to spend tyme with them eventhough its been a long tyme since tha last tyme we go overseas during tha holidays due to my momma busy-ness ..but love herr , i share problems with her and she has tyme to hear me out ..
andd whatt elseee ..i miss isya ! dewi ! kak wani ! anw , congrats isya baby fer making it to sec 5 , proud of you ..and i still rmbr you say you gonna treat me if i do well fer my Os =p ..and she'll be staying here fer one more year to take her Os before leaving fer aussie ..yeay2 ! good choice ..
sweethearts , meet up soon ..((:
lastly , i hate this feeeelingggggg ..i wish i have tha guts to tell hym i miss hym ..i need hym ..just hym , no one else ..and dont care if hes not feeling tha same ..i think im going craaaazeeeyy ..
heh

take caree ! (:

2009-12-18T20:12:00.000-08:00

i cant believe 2009 is coming to an end ..
but im looking forward fer 2010 , must look ahead mahh ..i dunnoe why i seem to hate 2009 ..
alot of things happened that make me stronger ..alot of hard tyme i gone through ..
i still prefer my past , reading back my archives are my fav ..laughing at old times..cause maybe my lyfee jux feel mundane now , tha present ..
many things changed , people walking in and out of your lyfee ..and i think im also changing ..
but STILL , 2009 is also memorable ..
but ALSO , i cant wait fer 2010 ..
i mean its always nycee to start a fresh ..
i learnt alot from my mistakes , from everything ..
i have alot of wishes too ..
anddd kaay i dunnoe what else to say ..not in tha mood ..

2009-12-16T17:45:00.001-08:00

see see , we seem very hyperr ..haha ..naz ! i want tha rest of tha pictures can can can ? (:

went out with my girls yesterdae , naz , fifa and fareeha ..and we were so kecohh ..talking , laughing , gossiping ..hyper hyper ..why ? cause its been a long tyme since tha last tyme tha four of us met ..so yesterdae was complete ..all tha four of us can make it ..so abit excited ..hahaha !
initial plan was to go to bedok and karaoke ..but then i call to do booking ,and it was full until 7pm ..alerrhhh ..so change of plan ..went to bugis ..had our lunch at tong seng ..then accompany fifa to get her beg at bugis street while fareeha and naz got themselves new pair of earings ..
then went to iluma..went in to nichii and i got myself a pink blouse got offer whatt ..so i must spendd ..27 bucks only ..hahaa ..happy happy cause i get to shop ..i wanted to buy somemore items but then i only brought half of tha money i got from my parents and my grandmomma cause if i bring all my money i end up spending everything , seriously ..see see , smart huh ..must saveee ..
then went to city hall ..sit around and took pictures around esplanade .. had ice-cream ..yeay ! ice-cream make me happyy ..my girls dont lyke me to be with this someone ..and still prefer *teettoottootteet* but haii , impossible laah *fake smile
i thought of watching new moon ..but i heard it coming out on star movies or something soon ..so yahh
ohh , and i wanna try fish SPA ! ..haha ! soon eyh girls ..
then around 7 plus went home ..i have to be back early cuase my grandmomma is at my place and we want to have dinner together ..
and fareeha was suchha a sweetheart ..she accompany me home until tha traffic light near my house .. i know fareeha u're reading this , im checking on you today ..make sure you do what we asked you to ..its fer your own good ..dont action action 4get eyh eyh ..
fareeha : eyh kau tak takot jln sorang maghrib2 nie
me: asl eyh ..adr hantu ke ..kau jgn buat aku takot lahh
fareeha : tak lah , kalo tyme gini bnyk mat2 lepak2 ..nnti takot kau kene kacau ..aku teman kau ah ..
sweeeeet ..haha ! lyke my own sister alrdy *hugs*
reached home and grnadmomma came up to me ..
grandmomma : dhirah tak derh boring uh , nenek cam nak tidur jer ..tk derh org nak layan ..
me : ye ke ? besok dhirah tak kluaa kaay ..
haha ..toucheddd ((:
orayteee , upload tha picture soon ..i have to take from naz's blog ..ohhh and going swimming next wed ..without my family tau girls ..they busy ..we go ahead jer ..

i still dunnoe what to do with my hair ..friends asked me to perm but i dont want .. i think im rebonding and cut it short ..(:
kaay byee peoplee ! (:

2009-12-15T16:42:00.001-08:00

heheh ..im in my goodddddyygooddy mood rite now ..since yesterdae in fact ..hahah !
accompany my dad to challenger at whitesands ..he wanted to buy tha anti-virus thingy which cost 60 bucks and could get it fer 40 bucks provided i show them my ez-link but sadly i 4got to bring my ez-link ..and my dad asked me to asked around and see if there is any kind soul to borrow their ez-link ..since going back to my house will be very troublesome ..i was so shy lahh , talking to strangers ..mampos ..
asked two girls who were jux outside tha shop but they dont want i think they feel inscure fer i dont know what reason ..grrrr ..
then went to KFC , andd my dad asked me to ask this cute guy and his younger brother sitting jux beside our table ..so my dad did tha talking2 ferst ..then they were nycee people so they followed me up to challenger while my dad continued eating ..i feel lyke laughing all tha way , haiyaa very shy you knoww , i mean lyke it feel so weird walking with a stranger especially with that cute guy ..i was meltingggggg until i gave tha cashier 60 bucks when could only gave her 50 bucks ..and they started to laugh at me ..grrr ..hahaha ! ..talked to his younger brother ..cause saw his ez-link and his brother is in pasir ris pri same as my younger brother ..huhu ..
i never got a chance to talk to tha cute guy ..sadd ..haha ..but i can heard hym whispering to his younger brother ..and he think i never heard hym saying "eyh cam ner dier tahu bodoh"..hhahaha ! before they went off he turned and smileeeeee ..anddd i wass gugu gaga-ing ...how beautiful god's creation is ..haha ..he has fair complexion and has this chinese2 look but hes malay ..cutee ..went back to KFC and my dad kept praising them ..mestilah dapat discount suke ah tuh ..and my younger brother told me that he know tha younger brother , same school ..ohhh pleasee pleasee he must be staying near my area ..hope i bump into hym one day ..haa ..kaaay2 i can go on and on talking about hym ..
so today going out with tha girlsss ..so today's plan ,going karaoke and then heading to town ..i guess ..jom jom jom ..im happyy happyy happyy ..hahah ..
listening to jatuh cinta lagi by matta band ..pertama ku melihat mu berdetar2 jantungku ..lalalala..haha !
take caree ! good daaayyyy ! (((:

2009-12-14T00:59:00.000-08:00

(look at tha picture , i jux woke up ..haha .. im still sleepy , look at my eyes ..heehe)

jux recover from bad flu ..and i dunnoe why my body feel warm ..ohh pleasee pleassee dont tell me im going to fall sick ..i dunnoe why people walk in and out of my lyfee as and when they feel lyke it ..
anyway , munirah text me ..miss her ! andd budak np when wanna go out ? ..planning to go town next week ..
i miss you , only you i swearr ..why is always you and you i think about ..why why why ..
listening to this song and i love tha lyrics ..

hanya dirimu kasih yang ku rindukan selama ini
walau ku yang memula
pisah kan cinta
maafkan aku
akankah kembali lagi cinta yang dulu
ku ingin dirimu kembali
kau terlalu indah untuk ku lupakan
kau selalu dalam cintaku
ku sedari cintamu telah berubah untukku
tapi ku berharap kembali lagi cinta yang dulu
(tha one in bold is exactly how im feeling right now)

tha ferst tyme i heard i fell in love with tha lyrics ..
anyone has tha song ? ..

orayte take care ..going out ..buhbyee (:

2009-12-13T00:22:00.000-08:00

my momma borrow her part-time fren's spects ..jux to look lyke 'back to school' ..haha ..tyme to make her happy since i have given her a hard tyme before ..but still she didnt give up on me .. love her (:

jux came back from wedding invitation at jurong ..

feel lyke vomiting in tha car , it seems lyke forever to reach tha destination ..i can have an hour sleep ..

if i choose not to follow then i'll be starving at home ..

so anyway , bibik is back ..yeay2 ! ..i can sit and shake my leg alrdy ..no need to do housework ..haha ..no lah no lah ..dont want people to pamper me ..then my grandmomma is also at my house she'll be here fer lyke 3 weeks ..good ..can layan kan me ..heh heh heh ..

my parents went to take my report book fer madrasah jux now and i got 11 position out of 30 ..hahah ..not good but still top 20 ..didnt study ..no tyme ..

and my ustazah cmplain to my momma that imma average student who can do better if i nvr keep ponteng-ing ..hahah ..not my fault , tk sengaje ..=p and i dont know madrasah got diploma , ustazah asked me to think about it ..

hahahah ! why not ? ..maner tahu one day can be ustazah ..hahahaha ! ..mesti mau berangan dulu ..

going out in a few mins tyme but i suddenly feel sleepy ..nope nope , i didnt stay up late ..i've been sleeping at -11pm nowadays ..ahahah !

cant wait to go out this wednesday ..why eyh ..i realised if want to go out , always happen to be on wed ..hahah !

ohhh , andd i feel lyke changing my fone number due to some reasons ..irritating bodohhh nakk mamposs ..kaay , suddenly i feel pissed off ..irritating ..annoying ..aaaahhhhhh ..

andd i think im making facebook rather than tagged ..but then lyke lazzzyyy ..nana ! buat kan buat kan , i malas ..hahahah ! kidding =p

listening to saat terakhir by st 12 now ..sadd :/

2009-12-09T18:41:00.000-08:00

yesterdae cooking session was fun ..hahah ..we took one hour jux to cook fried rice ..
fareeha eyes were all teary when she was cutting tha onions ..and i was laughing all tha wayy .. ..so it turn out to be gggggooooodddd ..my brother went fer second round , so what can i say ?..lol ! i dont know cooking can be real fun ..haha !
then watch horror dvd with fareeha , she was shouting most of tha tyme ..hahaah ..going out with tha girls maybe next week ..and going out with dewi and isya next weekends also , if i've conferm ..yeay2 , people are asking me out ..hahaha !
i've been a good girl lately ya knoww , i only went out once a week ..till my dad went lyke "tak nak kluaa ke " ..hahahh !
slept at 4 am ..talked to bestie otf ..i cant sleep , i dont know whyy ..after 1 am alrdy whuatt ..
asked hym to read me a bedtime story ..he went lyke "pada satu hari , ada satu princess nie .."
then he gave me jokes instead ..howw to sleeep ..haha ..so he slept ferst ..ferst tyme , he was sleepy before i was ..
and now its 11 am ..i think im sleeping again after my lunch ..my eyes kind of heavy

2009-12-08T17:39:00.001-08:00

guess whatt ..fareeha coming over today ..and we're cooking together ..hahah !
cnferm kecoh nyee ..
anw , fareeha if u're reading this , thankk youu so much fer all tha encouraging words ..i couldnt ask fer more , that is jux what i need , its lyke u believe alot in me , thank you again (: ..u too okaayy ..i lend you a listening ear anytyme u need it *hugs*
yesterdae tabitha was out ..and i was yeszaa ..its not that i dun lyke her ..but maybe i prefer slyvia cause she please my eyes and sezairi was also in ..haha ..his voice unique , love to hear ..
i still havent watch new moon lehh ..girls when ? ..(:
ohh , and i think i am no more confused about my own feelings ..i try to listen to my heart ..
its lyke i want hym , cause he never fail to melt my heart ..but i also admire another person , cause hes rare and different ..despite all this , i cant lie to myself cause i still need this someone , maybe im alrdy too dependent on hym ..
is it wrong fer me to feel this way ? ..
andd now i try to run away from all this feelings ..no use ..seriously ..thats why , some words are better left unspoken ..

2009-12-06T16:15:00.000-08:00

i dunnoe why i've been sleeping late but i woke up early ..slept at 2.30 am and woke up at 8 am , which is now ..
talked otf with nana darling , i love talking/sharing with her ..cause she know how i feel and i know how she feel ..we're almost in tha same shoe ..
hahaha ! ..nanti we talk2 lagi ..suka suka suka (:
then otf with nazihah sweetheart ..miss herr ..shes been busy working ..then if shes working night shift , in tha afternoon , she'll be sleeping ..so manyak nye susah woo ..hahah !
then talked to fareeha fer awhile to update her something ..haha ..kalau boring , take yr phone and jux dial my number kay kay ..tk mo merajuk selalu , muke buruk ..haha ! u got me (:
then lastly talked to bestie ..tha night before , he kol me in tha middle of tha night when i was happily sleeping dreaming about something ..i dreamt that i got a ustaz boyf ..hahahah ! i was laughing when i woke up ..i think this mean im gonna get a kind hearted boyf ..haha ..kay , maciam pahemm ..
advise hym alot ..i hope his ex will accept hym today ..kesian bestie aku ..
how i wish if that someone could be lyke bestie waiting under my void deck with rose ..hahahah ! opps opps , i 4get to stop thinking of that someone ..
i dunnoe how can i help to advise and comfort someone but i cant do tha same to myself ..astaga .. but nehmind lah , it give me great pleasure after helping people ..
ohh and i jux know something ..
bestie : eyh nanti kalo dier reject , i step nanges ah ..* voice act crying* ..boleh tak ?
me : hahaha ! i think if im tha girl i'll be laughing alrdy
bestie : sampai hati nad eyh
me : ouhh , kirekan lelaki kalo nanges , kdg2 acting jer ah lebih
bestie : shhhh , nie tactic ..
whaaattheee ..haha !
uhmmm , i need to shop soon ..urgently ..haha ..went shopping with my momma fer her dinner and dance at tamp one ..went to uniQlo , grabbed a few thangs ..and my momma went lyke "we come again next tyme "..alermakk , break my heart into pieces pieces pieces ..haah !
bibik coming back this friday , yeay ! ..no need to do household chores ..grandmummy sleeping over soon also ..andd going swimming soon also with my friends and family ..sengkang swimming pool ..(;
orayteeeee , buhbyeeee !

sometymes when you're down , tha harder you try to laugh and smile so people wont know how your real feelings are , you try to be perfect and do not want anyone to worry fer you , sometymes you dont even understand what your're thinking/feeling ..you're confused with your own feelings ..andd tha most hurful thang to do is to cheat your own feelings cause you think its tha best but in tha end you make yourself suffer ..better to keep it inside and let people think you're tha happy-go-lucky type ..

2009-12-03T20:59:00.001-08:00

Feeling better todayy ..i deleted all my inbox messages cause i want to avoid myself from reading past msgs ..why ? ..let me keep it inside ..i jux have this mixed feelings ..but i jux dunnoe how to say ..friends , thank you ..i try not to talk about hym anymore ..anymoree ..
its raining cats and dogs now ..with lightning and thunder ..andd im alonee ..hukhuk :/
dad wanted to ponteng solat jumaat today but i advise hym to go ..and now im alonee ..alermakk ..nehmind in few mins tyme , momma will be back ..mummy , faster2 come home ..teman me ..heeh
jux a short update ..to kill tymee ..i dunnoe what to do ..watch teevee and tha thunder became louder ..kay , bye bye ..(:
ohh ,andd maybe im making facebook or tagged soon since people keep asking me ..u got face book ..u got tagged ..go make one ah ..aiyerr ..

2009-12-02T17:56:00.000-08:00

went out with tha girls yesterdae ..
they came over to my hse ferst ..fifa , fareeha and me supposed to send naz to her workplace ..but i think we were late ..so naz go ahead ferst ..hahah ! ..farah and aqilah didnt join us since they were tired after their interview ..
then it was raining until we had to bring an umbrella ..tk glam betol ..hahah ! ..
ferst went to simei to have our lunch at long john ..then stick with initial plan to go to marina ..in tha train i saw this guy who look familiar ..hes hot okaay ..i was talking to fareeha while my eyes were looking at hym ..haha ..jux admiring god's creation ..when i think back ..okaay , i went to his blog before while bloghopping ..haha ..and hes 15 told tha girls alrdy , dun wanna believe ..from tha face can see eventhough he dress lyke some 16-17 ..
took pictures at marina ..i think we took lyke 30 plus pictures ? ..hahah !
best kan best kan ? ..i think tha last tyme i go to marina was last year , seriously ya knoww ..dont have tha tyme ..and i admiring tha atmosphere , tha wind then suddenly it started to rain again ..then we went to tha library ..rain stopped , went outside to wait fer kae yih , and i think letting out everything inside feels much better ..thanks girls fer tha listening ears ..i think karma is hitting on me ..jux expected *fake smile
went to bugis next ..and i was tired by then ..i only slept fer 5 hours tha night before ..haha ..
then suddenly got this lady tapped fareeha shoulder and mine shoulder ..
i thought this lady wanted to ask fer direction cause she looked lyke she have trouble with her english ..
lady : u all singaporean ?
me : ya
lady : age ?
me : 16
she gave us namecard and i cant understand what she was bubbling about but i know she said something somthing freelance model ..then after that fareeha layan ..i tried to walk away ..hehh
lady : come come write your name , and yr number
fareeha : nehmind2 , later we interested we call you okaay ..
lady : no no we call you ferst lehh
then she started to speak in mandarin ..fareeha face was damnnnn funneyy ..from me being moody i can start laughing ..with her blur face and she went lyke "HUH?!"
hhahahahah ! since its lyke cat language and dog language , and we dont looked interested tha lady took back tha name card ..hahaha ! haiyaa , all this trying to cheat our money only .. model kebabai ..lol !
then went to iluma , window shopping ..fifa and kae yih left ferst ..
then around 6 plus we boarded tha train ..and i think we reached pasir ris quite early ..only 7 plus ..but then fareeha and i have no more idea where to go ..and only left tha two of us ..sedeeyy eyh fareeha ? ..hha ..i still had fun ..fifa and fareeha kept making me laughh ..and yaa laughter tha best medicine ..hahaaha ..

i cant take this feeling any longer ..god please save me ..if we are fated to be together please bring hym closer to me , if not please take away this feeling ..

2009-12-01T17:52:00.000-08:00

its 10 am , and in 1 hour tyme or in 30 mins tyme tha girls will be here ..ahhhh i haven take a showerrr !
i was happy yesterdae cause ferstly got to talk to kak wani darlingggg otf , she update me alot ..haha ..she was so cute ..told me that she miss me saying "eyh kak wani , oinkoink(pigsound)" ..haha ! and i hope isya is alright ..i dunnoe what happened to her ..if u happen to read this ..kol me quick ..worry fer you ..
then talk to bestie otf ..lyke always i will always start tha "fight" ..and he will always win in tha end ..grrr ! and he went lyke "nad nak tahu tak org yng selalu menang , org panggil apr? ..mr champion" ..feel lyke vomiting ..hahahah ! had open talk ..secrets were being spluttered out ..haha ..only me , hym and god know ..hahaha ! he gave me tips/advice in relationship since he went lyke " nad sorang jer pompan , i tell ..bestfriend kan" ..its nycee to hear tha guys side about love ..totally different from girls ..he sound lyke my brother , mother , father ..hahah ! me and hym have tha same attitude seriously , i dunnoe howw ..we are really stubborn people ..haiyaa kanina , haha ..thats in my head rite now ..influence from bestfriend ..haahhh ..talked until 3.30 am ..see , i told you alrdy after 1 am i'll be hyper ..and not sleepy anymore ..dunnoee whyyy ..
despite that i was also pissed off with some people ..
i hate hate hate people giving away my number to stranger ..i hateeeee it alooottt ..
i alrdy hate tha person because despite me ignoring hym , he still didnt give up ..and when he gave away my number to his frens ..i hate hym more ..grrrrrrrr !
but i was cool yesterdae so i didnt say all tha F word ..andd i think im more sopan now *ehem2 ...tha girls will be lykeee coughing awayyy rite now , if they read this ..lol! =p
going out todayy maybe heading to town ferst to send dearest nazihah binte md ali to her workplace ..nycee kannn , i knowww =p ..kate off , abeh kene keje ..hukhuk:/
at night , my grandmummy coming over to my house due to some reasons ..i want to hug her , i can feel wad shes going through rite now ..
momma having dinner and dance next week , and she asked me to accompany her go shopping ..tha theme "back to school" ..cuteeee laahh ..haha ..
kaay lah , i better get going ..update again very soon ..buhbyeee ! enjoy your day ! (:

2009-11-30T17:22:00.000-08:00

syerah : thats why , saddd :/ ..i miss kak wani and you so muchh ..text/kol me soon okaay ..long tyme never hear from youu dearr , cnferm got alot to catch up kan kan(:
hafifah : HAHAH ! meet up soon yeahh (:
zara : a'ah lahh .. tk pernah tukar tau ..haha ..anw , dah lamer tk nmpk kau eyh ..rinduu (:
xue ting : XUE TING ! of course lah i miss my partner ..then you leh got miss me or not ? hahs(:
nazihah : dating ? haha ..boleh ahh ..tuesday nak kluaa ngan saper jer tuh ..haha ..next tyme take afternoon shift ..can otf ..haha (:
syafinah : done relink-ing ...eyhh syafinahh ! dah lamer tk dgr citee ..haha ..misses (:

done replying tags ..andd i was watching lost in love yesterdae and does talking in front of tha mirror really help you to let go your feelings ? ..i think it did ..keeping too much inside can be depressing ..

2009-11-29T17:41:00.000-08:00

i've been sleeping late this few days ..watched soccer fer two straight days ..
accompany my younger brother , nycee i knoww =p , then after half time he'll be snoring away , and leave me alone , end up watching alone ..haiyaa ..
and today which is monday , i suppose to cook ..told my momma im so sick of outside food ..but then she nvr go markett ..fer this whole week its always been eating something heavy during lunch and fast food during dinner ..my weight can keep gaining mann ..haha ..but i dont really care about that now , dunnoe whyy ..ahah !
no plans fer todayy , planning to go out with tha girls this wed since naz off kan ..i want to fly kite ..hahaha ! i dunnoe why flying kite can make me happy ..relaxing (:
i also want to go bowling , ice skating , swimming ..heeee ..
ohh , and naz told me bout her workplace and stuff ..i think guys living in tha west side are hotter ..hahaha ! kaay , randomm ..
read someone blog and i understand everything now , i feel lyke turning back tyme seriouslyy ..stupidd meee ..sometimes w/o you noticing , you actually hurt people feelings and i still cant believe i gave stupidd answer before ..sometimes words are better left unspoken ..
but i kind of miss his cuteness and his presence eventhough at times he can be tha pain in tha ass , testing my patience ..not that i fell in love but maybe i care ..
who wont ? ..when you go MIA , hes been tha one calling yr friends asking where have you been ..and when you're crying alone , hes tha one texting you saying that hes worry about you ..
and when you're down when you're bored hes there , not always but most of tha tyme , trying his best to make tyme fer you eventhough he has a lot of commitment ..he fight fer you when someone dont lyke you .. he never neglect you eventhough you tha one who neglect hym at times ..i miss hym though ..i miss his jokes , i miss his laughters ..
and now i dunnoe whats wrong with me , its lyke im back with my old attitude but its fer good ..i know what im doingg ..dont wanna to hurt and be hurt ..(:
reply tags sooon ..i wanna go take shower ..good day ! ((:

2009-11-28T03:17:00.000-08:00

so yesterdae was hari raya aidiladha right ? ..haha
woke up in tha morning and i looked puzzled because everyone in tha house busy doing their own stuffs ..went to my momma and went lyke "eyh hari ini , hari raye haji kan ..then why ayah and adq nvr go masjid" ..they actually overslept ..lerr i thought whatt ..
went my grandmummy house ..nasi briyani and lontong ..yumyum ..and my nenek very cute lahh ..
nenek : eyh muke kau dah laen eyh dah besar , nak nenek cari kan boyf handsome
me : boleh ah
momma : eyh tk leh , dier maseh skola lagi tuh
haiyaa , my mother spoil ahh ..
quite close with my grandmother , i share almost everything with her ..but she only lyke hym hym hym jer ..dunnoe why she suke nah with that person ..hahah
then my cousin being a sweetheart gave me her tube dresses and two pair of sandals ..happyhappy (:
but then when i tried i jux find tha dress doesnt looked nycee on me , too matured ..tha dress nycee but tha person wearing it not nycee ..hahah ! so decided to give it to my girlfriends ..
went home at around 3 pm , early huh ? ..haha ..greattt ..slept till 7 pm ..bathe ..went my aunty house to have dinner ..at night cant sleep , asked my momma to accompany me , she dont want ..watched teevee , im not single ..i watched twice alrdy but tha main actor never failed to make my heart melt ..haha ..comel ahh , cutee ..hoho
still cannot sleep , called nana ..talkedtalked until im sleepy ..i think by now all my friends know alrdy ..my sleeping tyme is from 11 pm -1 am ..after 1 am , i'll be hyper ..i dunnoe whyy ..lol !
ohh , and i never had tha chance to see tha kambing sembeleh ..i never seen it before ya knoww ..then no one teman :/

ohh , lastly , i wanna watch new moon ..girlfriends pleaseee ? ..i know guys not interested in this kind of moviee ..aiyaya ..sooonn eyhhh ..naz biler nak off ? ..jom ah kluaaa , jom jom ..ahahahah !

2009-11-22T16:34:00.000-08:00

its 8 am and im alrdy awake despite sleeping at 1 am yesterdae and im still sleepy .."thanks" to my younger brother , must take care of hym ..bibik's absence can be tha pain in tha ass ..must do alot of things ..andd my family and i will be eating outside fer tha whole of this 3 weeks ..no one cook at home :/

plus no one teman me at night ..haha ..so talked to naz otf and msg-ed aizat ..thanks fer layan-ing me ..hahah !

sleeping over = fun ! ..haha ..my dad asked me to bring naz along to sengkang swimming pool soon and asked her to sleep over again ..haha ..its been a long tyme since tha last tyme i take a swim ..looking forward ..((:

today no plans and i think i can hardly go out fer now cause i need to keep an eye on my brotha ..

isya gimme a shock yesterdae telling me about what happened to kak wani ..ring her up , and she got to talk to me only fer a while ..i hope shes okaay ..and im saaadd that i cant meet her cause shes grounded until i dunnoe when ..i miss youu tauu :/ isya how how ? ..kak wani cannot join us ..

ohh , and i dunnoe why my mood has always been good this few days ..i've been hearing to happy-happy songs and i feel lyke smiling/laughing all tha tyme ..hhaha ..im starting a new chapter , and i really mean it ..i deserve to be happy ..

when my little cousins drop by my house yesterdae im more tha happy also ..haha ..i loveee kidssss ! no matter how moody i am , if i see them i can smile ..haha (:

theres 4 little boys and tha way they called me aunty dhirah aunty dhirah is sooo cutee ..ahahh !plus one of them is only in primary 3 and another one in primary 5 but can alrdy dance kuda kepang veryy well ..seriously i was so shocked ..alermakk , i should take video of them ..cute tauuu ..they even taught me tha proper way ..haha ..now i know why i love kuda kepang tarian so much ..its in my blood , my uncle , my cousin ..but from last tyme my momma never gimme tha green light if i were to join any of tha group ..she say once in you , forever in you ..kaay , nehmind i know some of you dont understand ..plus my friends dont encourage me too ..

kaay lah , i update again soon if i go out ..will be busy ..oraytee , take caree ..(:

2009-11-21T21:45:00.000-08:00

Searched high and low for love
Just to find out that it was here all along
And i know it , what i wanted
I should have been chasing you

((:

2009-11-21T18:01:00.000-08:00

ferst of all , i changed my blogskin ..thanks to nana sayanggg , haha ..i very pampered i even aksed her to choose fer me tha blogskin ..haha ! love ya love ya ..so my font now is read-able ..kan naz ? haha ...if not i received complains ..
next , naz at my crib now ..she slept over ..hafifah cant make it but its okaay , next tyme must meet (:
my maid balek kampung yesterdae and she'll be away fer 3 weeks , alerrhh ..i must do tha houshold chores alrdy ..so i spent my ferst night alone with naz , haha ..kaay sounds wronggg ..
went fer dinner with her and my family at changi , then we watch dvd ..start to have open talk ..story-telling all tha way till 1 am , kecohhh laugh here laugh there , anddd im getting sleepyy ..i started to talk lyke im drunk ..haha ..to kill tyme i on tha computer and watched wizards of weaverly tha movie ..but i only managed to watch halfway because naz was half-dead ..hahah ..andd i even asked her to accompany me to tha toilet , to tha kitchen ..hahah ..pampered ..not scared ..
so now its 10 am ..i still can sleep but irritating phone calls woke me up ..and now as im typing this naz is beside me , looked blank ..hahah ! kaaay lahh , i wanna take a shower and have our breakfast ..tata ! upload pictures soon ..

2009-11-19T21:15:00.000-08:00

i never update my blog everyday lyke how i did now ..you know when im busy i have no tyme fer myself and then when im free , i have too much tyme fer myself that i dont know what to do ..haha ..
i know some of my friends are going fer job interview today , naz asked me to tag along but im not interested .. haha ..action eyhh ..good luck eyh krg , mintak2 dpt ..(:
farah asked me out ..but i cant make it today , i got plans :/
monday monday monday okaaay ?
isya baby is also back , and shes being a sweetheart , bought me somethang ..yeay2 !
go out soonn okaaay ? ..but when when when ? cant wait ..
uhm , then wad else ..im alone at home now ..i dont lyke being at home ALONE ..boringgg ..anddd ..hah , nothingg ..
eat , watch teevee( i think indonesian sinetron that i watch jux now kind of touching ..when can i get that kind of boyf ..lol!) kaay , now i dunnoe what to do ..how to kill tyme ?
maybe i shld talk otf ..but but who to talk with ? ..fareeha layan me yesterdae otf , until im sleepy ..haha ..next tyme kte cnference eyh ..cnferm kecohh ..(:
ohh , andd i dunnoe where my bestie have been ..MIA ..and i have this habit of waiting fer tha person to make tha ferst move to text/kol me ..haiya ..miss disturbing hym ..nehmind lah besok nye besok nye besok then i try kol hym ..heeh ..
lastly , i think theres someone who successful caught my attention ..wanna know who ..------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
cannot tell ah ..aiseyymann ..but but i dunnoe , hes way way too nycee almost perfect fer me ..
conversation with naz ..
me : dier alim tau ..hes different
naz : kalo gitu , kau pon nak kene macam gitu ..alim ..
me : yelah , im trying ..
hahahhaahh !

2009-11-18T23:22:00.000-08:00

2nd post of tha day ..

tha weather outside now is nyceee ..wuuhuu ..make me wanna sleep*yawnnn

so today , i think i shall jux sit at home ..my aunty came over and bought alot of foodsss hahah ! ..kaay , picturee tymme ..

2009-11-18T17:32:00.000-08:00

orayte , good morning ! tyme check , its only 9.30 am ..my younger brother got scolded from me fer waking me up ..aiyayapapaya ..
so went out yesterdae to tampines with fareeha , naz and hairul ..went fer job hunting and almost all tha shop no vacancy or asked us to call tha headquarter or wadever ..tha tamp Toys'r us was funney ..i think tha lady at tha cashier red month ah , she very moody ..haha ..she gave us tha form and took it away w/o any sound coming out from her mouth ..haha ..then went to uniQlo , my cousin not working ..alarhh ..then we also cnnt get cause we miss tha interview which is on 16-17 nov ..fareeha and naz shld asked this hot guy ..haha ..*heartmelt ..if me i cnnt asked tha hot guy , nervouss , later terrr gaaa gaapp ..hahaha ! then asked at promod , my another cousin also working there but shes not in ..aiyerr , and at last a friendly/sweet face ..
me :hi , is there any job vacancy here ?
lady : yr age ?
me : 16
lady : ouhh , alermak dier nak kene lebih sikit lah sayang
lady : u all tgh tunggu results eyh
me :a'ah , kalo gitu tk perr ..its okay2 ..
lady : heh , soory eyh ..thank youu ..
so yah , only shes tha sweet one ..tha rest all muke moody2/tired ..and most of tha shop want at least 18 and above or even 20 and above*giggle ..
or they want full-time ..so vely vely tha difficult lehh ..
naz went back since she want to meet her sayang , go sentosa lah kan ..tak ajak ..haha , kidding
so me , fareeha and hairul went to vivo city instead , had our late lunch around 4 pm ya knoww , no wonder i very hungry nak mampos ..ate at long john silver ..yeay2 i like ! ..heehh ..long tyme never eat there ..then laughhh2 aloot ..i want to go tha open space at vivo but it was raining ..sad seyhh , dah excited2 ..i love going there cause theres alot of sweet memories there ..so we still went fer job hunting ..theres vacancy at forever 21 but hairul dont let us apply cause he say only fer girls ..he want three of us to apply together ..haiya ..so shops that have guys/girls wear mostly no vacancy ..then went giant ..HAHA ! disturb2 isman ..fareeha thought hes an old man..haha ..then walked walked ..dont know where to go ..after isman finished work then he meet us ..ohh , and i love this shop called nichii ..haha ! ..nyce tops in there ..fareeha ! proper shopping soon ! (: finaally , a place fer guy and girl ..i suggested tha movie ..apply and we'll wait fer tha kol ..after filling up tha forms ..me and hairul went lyke mintak2 dpt *blow ..haha ..but at vivo there are much more friendly face , so tak seram sgt ..heh ..but when i think back vivo quite far ..lyke almost 1 hr tha journey to pasir ris ..alahaii ..then then guess wad ? ..it stopped raining , so we can go to tha open space ..yeay2 ! ..took pictures ..laughh alott aloott ..
i enjoy myself (: ..i want to reach home before 7pm cause i dont wanna miss singapore idol ..but then reached home almost at 8 pm ..andd i was sadd tha cute guy , faisal was outt ..hukhuk:/
then teman my younger brother watched soccer until 1 am pluss ..i missed playing soccer actually during PE lesson ..i know why guys love playing soccer cause its fun fun ..you'll be seeing me hopping/dancing with tha ball ..hahaha ! maen asal bolehh ..
kaay lahh , post tha pictures up soon , i wanna take a shower ..
buhhhbyyeee ! dunnoe if i should tag along with fareeha to tha gym this afternoon..tireddd ahh ..hahah..kaay , this saturday night , naz sleeping overr ..looking forward (:

2009-11-16T16:45:00.000-08:00

theres this girl who really miss this guy badly . but too bad she nvr has tha guts to tell hym how she feel . all she do is to wait and wait until she always dreamt of tha guy and cant sleep well at night . this girl has nvr believe in this word called love until she found hym . but when she fell in love she is too afraid to lose hym until she 4got to make hym happy . tha girl always think its her fault fer wadever that has happened . but only god and her knew how she really felt . she was confused/scared over everything . obstacles doesnt make her stronger but weaker cause it was too great . everyone blame her . they say tha girl must have hurt tha guy badly cause guys rarely cry . and she kept making mistakes aft mistakes .but deep inside , tha girl wish she could run to hym and hug hym and say 'i will always be with you' . but she can nvr do that . all she do is to keep it inside all by herself . and tha most hardest thing to do was to fake a smile and assume everything okaay . she knew what she wished fer will never come true . shes happy to see tha guy getting tha happiness he deserve eventhough look of pure sorrow could be seen from tha girl's eyes . she try to hide that . erasing hym from her memories will be a huge void that cnnt be filled . she gave up in love cause she cant find someone who can replace hym and end up hurting people feelings . tha sad thing is she never has tha chance to prove/show to hym how much he mean to her . she will always wait fer hym cause she love hym too much ..

(sorry not being emo ..i cant sleep yesterdae night , and i dont want to call my friends and disturb them ..so i choose to let go all my feelings and type it out in my phone and save it as draft and now putting it here)